I am in love with life right now I have so much to be thankful for in my life. I know i am starting this off on a good foot I dont know where it will end. But I wanna first thank my beautiful parents for raising me with all that i needed to succeed in this world and all to live a life better then the one they had. My friends because without them I would have fallen apart many moons ago, they are the pillars to my parents foundation. I cant imagine this life without so many i love in it. I have had a blessed and wonderful life in the last 25 years i have done more then some 50year old people. And with that said I am happy and their is NO EXPRESS LANE TO HAPPINESS. Trust me i have been looking for 1 for quite some time its not even funny. I have had some amazing highs in my life as short as it may seem to some I think "Life is the sum of choices you make." I don't like when people make excuses for the circumstances they have in their life right now weather its daddy issues, mommy issues, or just damn issues we need to learn to lean on other people, give in to help, seek guidance if you can't find it within yourself look to other sources that can help you. Life is not impossible to get through we have all the tools we need to make it in this trying world it depends on weather or not we want to access those hidden talents or those resources that The Powers That Be put in front of us to help in the lifelong struggle some call life. Don't cry and ask God or whoever for money and when it arrives you say no because your waiting for an envelop from god with 100 dollar bills in it. The things wee pray about or wish for are there for the taking we just have to be open to life to see them and not look for the obvious solution to the problem or issues we are having. I feel if you have had the worst luck when it comes to love at some point you have to stop making excuses like "all women are bitches" or "men ain't shit" maybe it may be time to look in the mirror. Or if Life keeps giving you lemons maybe you should switch your diet or look at why you keep getting lemons. I think everyone can sit here and have a small violin about the life they have and the poor me stories we all can but what will that accomplish NOTHING. Once again there is no express lane to happiness you just have to take those detours, lemons, bad circumstances and make some decisions on weather you are going to let issue #56 take all your time and energy or are you going on to the next. I'm not going to say its going to be easy i am saying that you have help you have outlets you have choices not everything is the end of the world. I am the first to admit that I am dramatic a lot of times but I have found sanctuary in my friends and in music I always have been but in recent months it has been more clear to me in my life that your friends are called that for a reason I looked up friends and this is the Webster definition: A person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard, a person who gives assistance. See that it amazes me that this definition is so self explanatory then you look up a Best Friend: The one who is closet to you. I Love hearing that i don't have one best friend I have 5 or 6 not because I need them but because I have a lot of issues and different sides to me and they know how to deal with each one of them in their own way. I have truly found a place in my life were I am happy things didn't work out how i planned them when i was 6, 12, 18, 21, hell even when i turned 25 but they never do. I am glad they didn't work out as planned because I am so Blessed and overjoyed at this space its new and yet I have so much more to see and do and that makes the journey that much more fun. Okay I think i got all that out e happy in the moment don't look outwards for happiness or what you think is missing its missing for a reason, enjoy the space your in your there for a reason because there is NO EXPRESS LANE TO HAPPINESS!!!!
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