Give your Heart A Break (2012-06-18)

Give your Heart a Break

Demi Lovato newest single it upsets me for many reasons but I will get into that soon enough. First let me say I do love this song too much and I must think my girl Amanda for putting me on it. 

“Don't wanna break your heart, Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong Like you might make a mistake.
There's just one life to live, And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break.”

 

This had me dancing like just wanted to break out some chorey. Listen to it and realize you can relate; either you are her feeling like you just want this person to relax and love or the other hand the one that is so over heartaches you can’t see what’s right in front of you. I think for me I purposing jump in that first role I don’t wanna break your heart I just wanna give your heart a break, that’s amazing I just want your heart to go on vacation with me. Less drama, some smiles, warmth, protection, love comfort those are some of the things I want your heart to do when it take a break. But in this process do you get so far from you in trying to give someones heart a break that you end up breaking yours? How do you know when you need to give your heart a break and not worry about someone elses? It is and can be exhausting proving over and over that you aren’t the norm. It must be harder for my ladies because if you meet a man fucked by life I am so sorry in advance because it like taking down the wall of China with a toothpick. I find it easier for us because someone can only fake being a nice guy for so long and then his true colors come out so ladies wait it out if he wrong for you he will get on some BS. Here is some more of the track the feed this second helping in 1 day WOW. 

“The day I first met you, you told me you'd never fall in love. But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was. Now there we are So close yet so far. Haven't I passed the test When will you realize Baby, I'm not like the rest.”

It is like the best part is that last line When will you realize baby I am not like the rest.  How long has that battle been going on with relationships I am not him or she isn’t me. I love to hate that concept but it is one I struggle with so I understand the drive to wanna prove them wrong that not all of us cheat or hit or manipulate or aint worth a pot to piss in. But I also see the drain factor in building someone up you could be tearing you down. And in closing these lyrics and this thought…

“Cause you've been hurt before I can see it in your eyes You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart Maybe, I can ease the ache, the acheSo let me give your heart a break. There's just so much you can take, Give your heart a break.”

I Love it I will finish with this concept you have been hurt before we all have I am here trying to make it work. You try to smile away things you can’t disguise, pretend things are ok when ya’ll should all know if someone knows you and loves you they know when shit ain’t right. Maybe I ease the ache, Let me make it a little bit easier for you to live in this world and hopefully with. There is just so much you can take, I think that is a two way street. One can only take being not loved or underappreciated for so long. And one can only feel less about themselves until they take out themselves if not both parties out. So I guess play the song and take what you will but hear the desire to be more then we are in relationships nowadays. Settling or not uplifting and realize one persons trash is another person’s treasure before its too late…

-I See You…- *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* J Ty 2012

Payphone (2012-0-18)

Payphone  

Come on if this song isn’t on your playlist you missing out. Maroon 5 newest summers 2012 single feat Wiz Khalifa. Great break up song or for that matter a song on enlighten thinking for the less jaded people of this world LOL. Here is some words for thought.

“I'm at a payphone trying to call home. All of my change i've spent on you
Where are the times gone babyIt's all wrong, we're at  the place we made for two.

If happy ever after did existI would still be holding you like this
And all those fairytales are full of Shit. One more Fuckin love song i'll be sick. “

Genius it hit him like a ton of bricks “All my change I spent on you.” Dumbass he probably called himself, they made plans and now he the fool. I love the line about fairy tales so funny and yet so true. If fairy tales exist you wouldn’t be across the country or the world or engaged or so damn crazy. But I just realized fairy tales are full of shit. They might both cheat one or both are going to get good at lying and manipulating the other. For lack of better words Shits going to get Real. How do you deal with that feeling that times up, too many wrongs, or just not enough right, Maybe its just to night and day concept or the You see the world in a Million Colors they only see black & white. Either way that must be some hard pills to swallow. I guess it comes down to he is done no redemption he tried which is rare.

“You turned your back on tomorrow Cause you forgot yesterday I gave you my love to borrow But just gave it away. You can't expect me to be a friend I don't expect you to care I know I said it before
But all of our bridges burnt down.
I've wasted my nights You turned out the lights Now i'm paralyzed. Still stucked in that time when we called it love But even the sun sets in paradise.”

Come the hell on if no one feels this come take a nap. He is emotional and hitting all the nails on the coffin. He tried everything and it still wasn’t enough, I know so many of us who do that exact thing. Hold on to relationships till there is seriously nothing but hate and pain before you let go and realize you wasted so much change on it. The best part of this is for me that last line “Even the Sun sets on Paradise”, it is so true and no one believes in bumps anymore. I guess it is something we all should have; notice I said should, because we all don’t have that and in that respect its kind of sad. We cant be friends we wont be friends you hurt me and that wont change I feel like I wasted so much of my life being what you wanted and that wont go away. So Deuces…

I guess this song struck a cord because and some point I have hit that bottom of anger and that upside to anger. Which if you know me and been around me I love that line in the tub. I feel this song and where it takes you and what you feel after it, it keeps me thinking the decisions I make has to be better. No one wants to feel less because someone didn’t delivery there end of the agreement to love, care, cherish, support, uplift, encourage. Without a ring those things are still in a committed relationship between 2 adults. It should just be without conversation or questioning those things that should be daily. I hate Valentine’s Day but I also love it, don’t tell me when to love her I show her daily I don’t need one day. And on the other hand I want someone to wanna do something special for me because I make them happy. I see the payphone concept on such a wide scale I am at a payphone (Some random part in your life) trying to find my way home, realizing I spent so much of me on you. Obama made a great quote and I so love it “Be the Change you Want to See in the World”… So True Live, Love & Dance

-I See You…-   *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* <3 Ty 2012

In 3D (06-13-2012)

In 3D

          Well with the world going full force in the digital age i think it wasn’t long before someone did a song with this in the title, the only difference is this song that I got this from is about something so much more. It is a beautiful song of Monica’s latest album “New Life”. I will put you up on the lyrics I will spill out my train of thought.

Verse-“I kinda feel like time is passing us by, But its killing me to leave you 'lone, Cry all day long.
Baby I'm so sure that we belong. Look in my eyes, they never lie.”
Climb-“I see it so clear right now, I'm riding shotgun, we're headed there. If I should disappear right now, you wouldn't notice it or care. Not at all.”
Chorus-“Baby you don't see nothing, You must be blind, out your mind, out your something.
I see us so clearly, it's like 20/20. I see us in love, like the people on TV.
I see us in 3D.... I see us in 3D.I see us together, it looks like forever.
I see us in love, now don't it look better? In 3D

You already know I fell in love with this song like I mean I was like OK Monica you did on ya thang on this track. Like the first verse and the climb it is sick for me I get it when you’re in a friendship or relationship mostly a relationship that is kind of stuck in a not so comfortable place and you see something they probably don’t or can’t. Maybe he/she doesn’t have the capacity to see this amazing person they have, or he/she can’t step to the plate and make that next big commitment, hell he/she keeps bullshitting and you getting over it. You kind of realize “If I disappeared right now who would notice or care”. You go into defense mode or start to settle for this is it because you see the chorus and they can’t “Baby you don’t see nothing you must be blind, out your mind, out your something. I see us so clearly its like 20/20, I see us in love like the people on TV I see us in 3D.” I Love all that, when do you think you sit someone down and say here is the thing I need more I see more? And I can’t keep wasting my life. Maybe you want kids, or finally be a wife and mother, or hell maybe you just want to give someone keys to your house, or for that matter just be able to say we are together. It’s those steps in relationships that some people are blind too they don’t see what you see and you hear your friends or see that things are working but, you don’t know what’s behind closed doors; that is the exciting part that’s what you want to experience and the amazing vacations together the laughing, movie dates, kids first step, your honeymoon, your first house. I love talking to my friends and hearing that I don’t feel alone in the pursuit of happiness or lack thereof because the more you look the more it eludes you. I love hearing that my friends are a lot like me “he don’t see I want kids, he can’t tell I wanna get married, why won’t she see I’m a great guy, is it so hard for her to know accept my flaws.” It those things we struggle with. Is it going to still work even though I know he or she won’t change or wanna grow in the same direction until I have some version of “THE TALK”. You know maybe it’s the “I need more sexually”, or the “Are we serious”, the “Is marriage even a possibility” there are plenty depending on your situation but that  is what is so amazing about life in today’s way of life. You can say “listen give us a chance see what I see.” This leads me to the next part of the song I love.

“Baby I can see us from a mile away (Cause love is right in front of my face)
And its so close I can touch it. Oh baby give us a chance, See what I see.”

Is this your last ditch effort to say listen last straw. I you just love music cause I put myself in those persons shoes looking at that person saying Baby give us a chance see what I see. And then you are fed up you are losing love and faith and you look elsewhere hell maybe you become more distant, or maybe you substitute it with drugs, or cigarettes, or alcohol, or god forbid you find it in someone elses arms or emotional connection. You got to go for what makes you happy. I love my Best Friend Amanda for so much but to definitely put me up on the quote from the movie “This Means War” and the funny lady Chelsea Lately says towards the end.            “Don't choose the better man, choose the man who makes you a better woman.” And that is so true I love that and that maybe the person you are seeing now and that’s amazing. Or you have to be adult to enough and grounded enough to know not to waste this precious time on Earth on someone that doesn’t deserve you and is keeping you from true happiness. I love Both the realization he/she is the person you want to spend your life with  or the shocking truth that’s is not meant to be.

I guess in closing I love this concept this song and the thought process it gave me for my future with my career, love, and the present me and future me. It is amazing to be alive in this time in our world’s history I see so much for the coming months and years and that is a Great feeling. Find your *LIGHTHOUSE*. That person that holds you up, see in your darkest hours, your safe house, a place that you know is HOME. Live you only get one chance at life so live it fully.

Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* <3 Ty 2012 –I See You…- J