Bye Bye Love (2013-27-04)

Bye Bye Love

OK let me just start this with a firm I Love Pandora my special blend of Bruno Mars, Kelly Clarkson, and Janet Jackson is Amazballz. Well along the way I found this little treasure by Backstreet Boys called “Bye Bye Love” of the 2008 This is Us album. I dig the Song it is a great song and the lyrics I love and live in I will give you some of them and move forward.

 -Versus 1: You should be right here laying next to me, But baby you chose to love the hard way.You could be right here getting the best of me, But baby you decided he was your man.
And now that you're finding out, He's playing little games, you calling me again 
You say you want me around, But I'm not sure now if I wanna be down Soooo.. 
Chorus: I think I wanna stay single, Maybe we're better apart. See I don't want a girl that, only wanna come back Cause, some other man broke her heart So Bye Bye Love- 

I mean come on this is real man talk even though it’s a boy band. He is in that versus;  you not here with me u should be, then it gets real like you only calling cause the man you thought was top shelf really ain’t. Then in the chorus I lived “I think I wanna stay single so bye bye Love”. How many people feel that at times especially when you in 100% and out of the blue or when you know the BS is coming you get hit with the I am finding myself or I have time invested in him or I just need me right now. Then you see them with someone else or that when shit goes wrong in their life you are back on TOP. NO Ma’am I know it’s a broken record but I just don’t get tats for shits and giggles they mean everything to me and my latest “We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve” has me think every single day about my other one “Life is the Sum of Choices you Make”.

You have to know when to move forward cut your losses and as a song says “throw my hands up cause baby I tried”-Complicated by Rihanna check out that post it was a good one. Any who I think I like this song cause HE is telling her Goodbye I deserve better thanks for the memories and lessons learned. I smiled knowing that these lyrics are me it will give you another piece of this puzzle and then solve it.

-Crazy now the tables turn It wasn't long ago that you turned your back. 
Saying there's no way that we can work. And you were quick to move on to the next thing- 

I am good but now that you need a shoulder to lean on or realize Oops you made a boo-boo I need to be there Erroneous. I am good Single it has taken a lot of time out of me and a lot of Emotions to realize not everyone is meant to have a family I am an Amazing Godfather and I will an Awesome Uncle but if everyone was meant to have a family there would be an equal about of people so everyone would have someone but that’s not logical. I could fall in love every 5 years and that be enough cause Love and soul-mates, and the Hopeless Romantic in me all see that what I want may be just outside this realm of existence. I love seeing the friends I have and the people I have loved and still love having kids getting married and starting a families but, if one more person try to give me their remedy for Single life or the cure to a being in a relationship I will scream then detach their limbs. When I say I am ok being single I wholeheartedly mean it doesn’t mean I don’t want a family or someone that loves me and I love them and it works it just means I am ok in this space and my heart and the Hopeless Romantic in me just have to get what I am missing from the movies I watch the TV shows I love the books and quotes I live in and the Amazing Loyal Assassins/Ninjas I keep in my life.

So to shut this down Bye Bye Love isn't me shunning love I am just past the BS and to not be rude I am OK where I am I don’t wanna date (Pointless Waste of Time) and I have 3 amazing god-kids that I love and would take a bullet for so why do I need anymore then that if I Happy in that? Learn to Accept the things you cannot change and Change everything else and life won’t feel like a choir, you will feel ALIVE.

*Life is The Sum of Choices You Make* *Übermensch* *I See You…* * We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart*

Live, Love, Dance

<3 Ty Johnson

2013

LOYALTY

Loyalty

            I thought of this about a week ago.  And I think of it daily Loyalty is something that is tested.  And they show that concept in so many movies and TV shows that I love and completely engulf myself in. “Learn to be Loyal, without the Loyalty between us we are no better than the Beast at our Door” Great line from *Underworld: Rise of the Lycans*. This is something that breaks the traditional lines people make like mom, brother, sister, dad, best friend, girlfriend boyfriend , wife, husband, hell neighbor. Because if loyalty is tested and they aren’t, life changes and you have choices that needs to happen. I say that because people think those titles mean something in life, those are sometimes the titles that need testing most and are often severed first.

            I go back to ancient Assassin Guilds, Knight of the old Kingdom, and Warriors of Honor Samurai’s, that Loyalty was known and when it wasn’t Bye-Bye. In the X-men movies Choices had to be made and lines are drawn it works just the same in our day to day. People test you and in return you testing them in friendships sometimes you grow apart, as the Christians say everything has its season.  You can’t be friends with your childhood friends forever not all of them, Life happen people make choices and Loyalty is tested in different forms like in “Game of Thrones” Love the show to death but loyalty is more important than last names or blood bonds. And that’s how it should be just because we family doesn’t mean your awarded a free fuck me over card or because we are dating it’s a get out jail free card either. When the chips are down and you need someone it comes from the most unlikely but likely people.

            You know it sucks when you have someone you know and love and, Betrayal happens how do you recover or bounce back? You realize humans are flawed and not everyone is meant to be in your life in any capacity. Life is the Sum of Choices you Make some choices you have to let people go and move past the pain to be a better version of you. Life is fleeting and the little moments we have should be cherished and not spent dwelling on lil’ thing that in 5 years won’t mean a thing in your world. We as a world need to realize that not all that is and was will be forever. Change is inevitable and to fight change is to want to stay the same and progress is what leads to Evolution not stagnateness.

            I think I will close this out with a thought I tweaked it from a movie quote but of course I did. “I would trade the world and all its Riches to rid the World of Disloyal Bitches”, that is things you can’t buy on EBay like my Big and only Brother his loyalty is the stuff of Legends and I Love him tons he is my rock so to him his Loyalty is Forever…

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* *I See You…* * Infinite Love starts in the Heart* * We Accept the Love we Think we Deserve* *Übermensch*

Ty Johnson

<3 2012

Walking On Snow (2013-01-04)

Walking on Snow…

                So I have been trying to blog about Kelly Clarkson “Don’t Let Me Stop You”  and I was trying to feel it and it wasn’t working as a song in itself I live in it but I couldn’t express it on paper. So after 2 times last month and yesterday trying I finally moved on. Not because I didn’t love the song but because a new me arose. I had been nice then hateful for years with Ex’s and this Day not just about them but my nice and hateful found a happy blend and I thought of this song by Jordin Spark’s Sophomore Album “Battlefield”. When it came out I bought it, which if you know me means I love Jordin. Any who I Lived in the song back then danced at a gym in Vegas late nights and was like “This a hot move-on Song” but, I wasn’t there in my life. So this song came to me the moment I came into I blended, evolved, more-functioning me. I will give you lyrics then we can live together in the New Moment “Walking on Snow”...

-Versus - Your love was a waste of time, you've been left behind. You made no mark on me, you’re gone and you left no sign.

You’re not on my mind, don’t try to press rewind.

 Chorus - It’s like walking on snow, without leaving a trace. You’re not gonna see, gonna see this heart break.

You huff and you puff but I’m not blown away. When are you gonna get it I’m so unaffected.-

“I don’t hate you, but I no longer give a hot damn about your feeling or your existence in this universe (or the next).” I lived in the lyrics like the waste of time, the no rewind; it’s like walking on Snow without leaving a trace. I fell the first time I heard it lived all in the song even more the second time.  I hit for the first time my wall but not in a hateful way but in a WOW no need for anger or nicest in this world but an Honest Truth in Everything. I found some peace hearing this song and with the last 8 years or so of making some dumb decisions and Amazing Choices ALL Smiles hearing the lyrics and feeling what I felt then but with Life added to that made me jump behind the laptop. I am the first to say I understand I get it, yeah it’s ok, basically come use or hurt me lol. But this song played on repeat for a while and it smashed into me “Playing their game will never work” so I stop playing any game quit to the main menu and hit “Honest Truth”. At that point I didn’t give 2 pigeons’ (You know I hate birds) what happen or if they family was ok or if they were happy I was happy and that’s what mattered and those doors can now close with heavy locks and be tossed into the Laurention Abyss.

                I wanna say it is always a journey and never a destination which I think is my senior year motto which would be funny because my reunion is this year. Anyway journeys are long and some hurt more than others and some leave scars not all physical but anything that hinders your happiness is poison. When I watched that movie and got the tattoo I wrote a blog and now in writing this one it is still relevant. “Why do I and everyone I love fall for people who treat us like nothing? We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve”, that statement is so true.  Change that now not just for your personal happiness but so what you deserve is the world and shouldn’t settle for someone who won’t treat you that way. Life is too short it is not just a saying or a cliché its real the small amount of time we are here shouldn’t we make the best of it? Look back at your past on last time and Think of walking on Snow and see that the past is History and cannot be undone. Look forward and the Future is foggy and a Complete Mystery, and cannot be predicted. But today is a Gift that is why we call it “The Present”, enjoy it live it. Close those doors for you for your Happily Ever After for the Shooting for Stars Dreams that comes true.  My last is almost out so vibe off these lyrics and I will finish my thoughts.

- [Chorus 2:] it’s like walking on snow, without leaving a trace. When all that you said never carried no weight.
I came out untouched and in another place When ya gonna get it I’m so unaffected.-

To close this out “All that you said never carried no weight” just really got me. I think of it this way, once you come to a Honest Truth place all that was said and hurtful or just unnecessary is steam under I hot bridge. But a disclaimer from me your going to want to say a lot to a lot of Ex’s or just to a lot people who u start to see as a hinder now that prospective have switch a bit. It is up to you to act on them I did and will cause well you know me and with this new Weapon my mind is I am good to go. Those words those pains are in another place then you are now. So transcend and become the Übermensch in your life and start to see that shift in your personality knowing your worth, accepting nothing less, and Moving Forward. It’s Now April so I hope Life beings all of you not what you want but what you Need… And I wanna thank my Brother for being him and giving my new name an Amazballz birth Ty Johnson because Johnson is who I am Johnson is Me Long live the JOHNSON's now Kneel!!!

*Life is The Sum of Choices You Make* *Übermensch* *I See You…* * We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart*

<3 Ty Johnson

2013