-When
It Was Me-
Talk about a good song, not for me
this time but definitely a repeater in my playlists of love and or heartbreak
songs. Its is on a good young artist Paula Deanda album it is a secret nugget
to me I loved it when it first came out and then it just laid dormant until I
heard it on my Pandora and searched my ITunes and found it again and hit
repeat. The song for me is “miss your water once the well is bone dry” / “envious
of the new girl” type song. I will hit you with some lyrics then get to the
reason I can’t sleep tonight.
–Long
brown hair all down her back, so the hell what’s so special about that. She
used to model shes done some acting so she weighs a buck 05. And I guess that
she’s alright if perfection is what you like.-
So clearly the jealous comparing side
of a break up, I cant say I have ever been the “well look at her new man he
aint got nothing on me” type after I am done I am quite done once I shut my light
off and not like maybe it will get better type thing but a I wish you the best
goodbye forever kind of let go I could care less who or what they doing. But I
guess it some occasions it must be hard to see someone you loved or cared about
with someone else I personally have and just chalked it up to not my right kind
of crazy and I wished her well and him and kept it moving. Life is Short and
fleeting and you have to live in the moment you have while you have it. I will
give you some more lyrics to soak in.
-I’m
not Jealous, no I’m not I just want everything she got. You look at her so
amazed I remember way back when you used to look at me that way.
Chorus: Tell me what makes her so
much better than me, what makes just everything I could never be, what makes
her your every dream and fantasy cause I can remember when It was me.-
I was like in my bathroom washing my
face and it was on Pandora and I tried to rewind it because I thought I heard
her wrong so that when I snapshot it and pulled it up and hit repeat. That
person in this relationship is so sad and yet so defensive her walls it up but
her heart is hurting. I feel her just because this woman isn't just comparing
and contrasting she is remembering when he gave her the world as well, its like
Misery x3. It is funny because I felt no attachment to this song in my life
which is rare in a blog song to not feel the song in a personal way, but then I
hear it hundred times and it hits me she messed up. I hear it and I see her
breaking his heart and then seeing that he is happy with someone else and she
starts the what’s wrong with me thing. I find it a beautiful song and so strong
emotionally and how it could relate to the life someone is living right now. If
you have to ask someone what makes you special you don’t belong with them. If
you have to guess the whole time then its time to move on, if you don’t know if
tomorrow they will love you hit the ground running. You determine your Worth,
your Love intake etc. So don’t make someone a Priority when you’re just their
Option. I started choreographing a lyrical piece to the song that’s what I was
getting from it. I see that a lot if not more then most of my entries are about
love and relationships and its just because I am a Hopeless Romantic I want
what some of these songs sing about and I want to learn from what the rest sing
about like the quote says “You listen to the beat when your happy, you hear the
lyrics when your sad.” I personally always hear lyrics I love music and where
it takes you and I love that I can go there on my journey and include the
people who read my blogs thank you so much and keep checking in to see whats in
my head at any given moment… Live, Love, Kneel before Zod (sorry that was
suppose to be) Dance.
<3
Ty 2013
-I
See You…-
*Life
is the Sum of Choices you Make*
+Infinite
Love Starts in the Heart+
