Holding On & Letting Go
I
love this song by a guy name Ross Copperman it was on The Vampire Diaries, it
is a beautiful song it talks directly to the title the lyrics is really good.
“It's
everything you wanted, it's everything you don't
It's one door swinging open and one door swinging closed
Some prayers find an answer
Some prayers never know
We're holding on and letting go”
It's one door swinging open and one door swinging closed
Some prayers find an answer
Some prayers never know
We're holding on and letting go”
I love how it is worded it is amazing what lyrics can do
for a song, you go through these moments a lot in life where you feel so
conflicted about a choice you don’t know what to do about life in general and
it comes down to these words. I love the concept one door swinging open one
door swinging close, holding on & letting go. Decision decisions what to
do? Where to go? Hell what to wear? All valid questions these are all things
that we all as humans struggle with, we are so focused with the future that we
don’t fully appreciate the present and the moments that are fleeting. In all
those statements in the lyrics everything you wanted and everything you don’t
it’s like getting everything you wished for and not realizing everything you
wished for came at too high of price. I am learning very quickly that you just
got to go with it and live in the moment because in all reality that’s all we
really have is the current moment because tonight, tomorrow or even next year
is not promised.
Funny
how time flies when you’re having fun, that is a great line from Janet’s first
album. But in that is so true you don’t have a concept of time when you’re in
the current moment and enjoying it. So what is the problem with doing this? We as
humans are so caught up in what’s next that we forget or over look what’s NOW.
You know what’s standing right in front of you that very moment I am in right
now typing behind my desk enjoying today. I need to be more present in the
present so my Presence is showing.
So I have
had some days and some DAYS and that means just as you reading it, I have come
to some revelations not by myself but all in all they were bound to come up the
revelations that is. I am not letting the past be just that the past I am
holding on and not letting go, I am putting a band aid on my life wounds and
hoping it will heal alone without me and that I will be better soon enough, and
that’s not the case. It makes it worse when the band aid falls off and I lose
my shit on some undeserving person or someone I care about. The trouble with
love is those statements I’m holding on and Letting go I am holding on to
things that I should be long past or that should have been let go of so long
ago. But instead of me letting it go I put a band aid on it and hoped it would
be ok. And now I see that was a terrible mistake and that’s what hurts so bad.
I am me because of the things I say and the actions behind my said words. Who
am I without those bonds, if I can’t take my own advice or live by my own
words? I need to live in the Now! I
cannot back those words up I was starting to not belief in me anymore and my
ability to be okay. So was that all a front? NO I am just not used to loving
and being loved in return. In that I have to step my game back up and SEE IT
that special thing in myself, in that situation, in my career, in that special
someone’s eye or in my friends. I have to be able to hold on or let go and I am
a pack rat in those things I don’t wanna hurt anyone or feel bad about some
ones disposition so I hold on and not let go. But let me tell it in BOLD I am moving past all my hurt
starting today, open to the one door swinging open assuring my present and
future happiness and the other door swings close and locked. That is about all
I can do in this world to move forward as a human being and a man. So I will
start Holding on to the Good & Letting Go of the Bad…
