Without the Love… In Her Words! (2013-11-24)

Without the Love… In Her Words! (2013-11-24)

So I know I just wrote a blog but we know I  cant stop when I hear I song and or tune my ears and heart to the words of a woman. After listening to this song but Demi Lovato I had to write another post. Because I normally give women most the credit because they deserve it but this is for you “New Women”. I will not shy away from me saying women have fallen from the ivory tower we placed them on and some took on their own. Never hesitant to say this new generation of women is weaker or “fallen from grace" of the moms and grandmas of past but in that I must state “Applause to you NEW WOMEN”. I see so much strength in ladies today my powerful women don't worry there is still some weak closed sad ones out there “I See You…”.But you New Women are moving mountains, making your voice heard, Living your life without restraint and it's so HOT. 

I picked this song because she goes in on a relationship that is fake and she is so aware. She can tell the love isn't there anymore and she wants to make it work so she making it known for real. Like she give you the line “Like you’re DiMaggio?” Which I Love the throwback to the Old days especially speaking about a real smooth man Mr. Joe DiMaggio I will give you the bulk then finish with this process?

Bridge: And you work so hard to get me, just to let me go Yeah you put me in the spotlight, just to steal the show And you try to take me home like you're DiMaggio, oh It's such a joke.

Chorus: Why are you singing me love songs? What good is a love song, what good is a love song without the love?
Why are we acting like lovers? We don't know each other Even though we used to rule the world
Why are you singing me love songs? What good is a love song, a love song without the love?

I love this because in recent months I have seen some amazing things, some things that never change, things I wish would, and mostly growth. Especially in a woman’s outlook on Love, The lyrics are great because she can tell he is saying and doing everything like he used to but no love is in it. So for me I was over the moon because this woman was talking to me and it was so pure she says, “I found my happily ever after, and it wasn't work it was time, love, patience, knowing and owning our power as individuals and a couple.” And she just kept walking through the mall. And I was done no one heard it or was around, but she got me to talking and I found that strong, independent, smart, driven women are starting an underground revolution that shouldn't be underground. It should be in front of the masses. 

I love this cause they see that real men exist and that they don't have to settle, or hell that loving another women is just have amazing and it's OK. I am on board pre ordered my tickets, got the early discount goodies, and waiting for the event. And in the build up at the end she keeps it so real and so adult yet poetic like an artist. it's his last chance to make it work and then its curtains

Build: This is the bend before the break, When we forget the harmony
This is how water-colours fade into distant memories…

That is so damn beautiful and tragic, and Poetic. She lays it out there it's not broken yet but it is breaking so help me or this is it. She hit him with the “Distant Memories” which for a New Women its easy it simple for them to write you off like they just attended your funeral “And Bye Bye”. I truly feel overjoyed and the strength I see in old friends, past coworkers, new friends and that warms my heart more then anything to see growth feel growth and give that growth back. It brightens my day to write this one. 

I leave you with this Don't listen to love songs a man or anyone gives you if there is no LOVE in it. You have found what was missing now run with it, hell if no one believes in you trust me there is a sisterhood that does. And if they don't I told you all I already purchased a ticket to the “New Woman Revolution” and I got the fitted T for the Rally BAZINGA. Fight for what makes you happy and if work quit, but if you happy and you found something or someone that makes your smile constant then like Beyonce` say, “Smash into it”.

*We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* *I See You…* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart* *Perfectly Imperfect* *Uniquely Perfect* *Know Thyself*

 <3 Ty 2013

Not A Bad Thing (2013-18-11)

Not A Bad Thing (2013-18-11)

Ok so I waited awhile before I sat down to write about this song. Well, first I was extra busy getting in to shape and,  2 working with a lot of Cosmetic Muggle's which has been enlightening and prompted this post. Ok so I love doing make up as another career but with all things there is tremendous ups and downs. The money, costumers, co-workers are all on the plus side. On the flip side problems I feel for a lot of my team, I think it is a huge difference between dancers and humans don't argue with me you all know I am right. So I have a little over 24 years with female Entertainer  I understand, relate, connect with on so many random levels which is why they tend to be my closest friends or I sleep with my cast mates on more then 6 occasions(or should I say contracts). Any who back to my train of thought, so in recent weeks my cosmetics team and new women in the dance life is opening up and I love it because women are such Enigmas and So intriguing its Beautiful. In saying that it is so amazing to hear how these Amazing Creatures think and I came to the same conclusion which is“Women WAY more often then not love men that #Aintworthshit [I hash-tag LOL]”. 

Here is some lyrics from this Amazing Song for JT off the 20/20 Pt2 Album, which can I say is interesting cause great musicians are making great albums again. This song was like on repeat for a while because I loved it because it in itself is  the epitome of  Me and, a woman missing a great man because she settling for the BullShit. Go on this journey with me PLEASE…

Versus:Said all I want from you, Is to see you tomorrow, And every tomorrow Maybe you'll let me borrow, your heart. And is it too much to ask for every Sunday? And while we're at it throw in every other day to start

Bridge: I know people make promises all the time, Then they turn right around and break them. When someone cuts your heart open with a knife and you're bleeding
But I could be that guy to heal it over time, And I won't stop until you believe it
'Cause baby you're worth it

Chorus:So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me
Cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true with me
Spend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was free
So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me, me
It's not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me…

RIGHT is this not crazy this Hopeless Romantic this person that is what the fairy tales told you about, or the movies we all love, hell for me it's not only Me its what I love about LOVE.  I wanna know please comment below i need some feedback, because over a year i have been single and now hearing so many different stories from so many different lives, background, and walks of life its like “DO YOU WANNA BE TRULY HAPPY?”

Where is it ok to be unhappy? Did you read these lyrics “I could be that guy, to heal it over time, and I won’t stop until you believe it. Because baby your worth it”. There is so many amazing people in this world I wanna say that Line too. As to say let me be your Pillar, best friend, weekly Rant, sometime tease, and in rare occasions the Love you forgot was out there. Each separate and unique to the many people i have encountered. So the track progresses in a beautiful new age way of saying  “I can be Forever” with the chorus “Don’t act like its a bad thing to fall in love with me, cause you might fuck around and find your dreams come true with me.” i love the “you might fuck around” I live in that line lets be honest its 2013 why you settling for :-/ When some I may be your forever. That is beautiful to me and thinking it makes me love this song so much. 

So the last little lyric that got me thinking is the “Spend all your time and money just to find out that my Love was FREE.” I am sitting thinking you wasting a lot  of love, care, tenderness, compassion on something that you constantly paying for when I am FREE. You got me, to LOVE regardless and in spite of. But you gotta open your eyes. 

Completing my thought on this song. I love that so many people forget that at some point in their life they thought of the Epic Love, The Adventure of Loving like the stories, books, movies, tv that the world gives us. I love that feeling of wanting to just Love and my Hopeless Romantic comes out and i wanna just let her know she's My World and I am her Universe. If this is you let it be you all the time because who you are is Beautiful, And if you met this person in your life “Its Not A Bad Thing” to fall in Love. Please give your feedback I am talking to some publishers and I want any and all comments….

*We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* *I See You…* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart* *Perfectly Imperfect* *Uniquely Perfect* *Know Thyself*"

<3 Ty L. Johnson

2013

Let Me Go (2013-21-10)

So I Decided to kind of Video Chat about a Song, first time for Everything huh!!!

Do i like the sound of Voice Who Knows LOL Hope you all Do 

Give some feedback....

Ty

2013

Not A Bad Thing (Video Mode) FIRST EVER

First Video Post hope it turns out ok I may have to Repost on YouTube!!!!

You Can't Win (Know Thyself) (2013-22-09)

You Can't Win (Know Thyself) (2013-22-09)

OK well its been a while and for me clearly that means a lot has happen. Well first heres to my Virgos, our season is over but never forgotten "Know Kneel before Zod." Sorry about that! its kind of weird i couldn't write during our season or my birthday. But if you know me you know my stars weren't right, my karma felt off and my life was out of balance. I wasn't me. And its so crazy for me to write that cause i haven't felt 100% not me in literally 10 years to the moment which also freaked me out a bit. 10 years ago to date my family moved out of Detroit and my whole life Evolved, and ten years later i felt just as lost as i did walking across Murray Wrights stage to get that damn piece of paper earlier this month. 

So why this title? Well if you know me or seen me i got my 13th tattoo and yes the 13th one and it was PERFECT timing. Because most see 13 as bad or Ominous but i see so much more the stars this virgo season was beautiful, its was a friday the 13th this Month, i got my 13th tattoo, it just happen to be "Know Thyself in Greek", i moved back to Las Vegas this month, and for the first time in almost 2 years i feel more like me then i ever have. It made me sit down and write the day after Virgo looked to Libra. Cray Cray Meow right? 

So to the "YOU CANT WIN by KELLY CLARKSON" well thanks to my soulmate sister who got me this memory stick, and the first albums i put on it on it were albums we chatted about one night like 8 hours straight of music and talking about "Life is the Sum of Choices you Make". Which oddly enough was the tattoo i was suppose to get as my 13 but end up getting "Know Thy Self" which this song off her "Stronger" album is the other half of this title. if you haven't heard it here is some lyrics to get you on my page.

-If you go They say you're following, If you don't Then you're too good for them.

If you smile You must be ignorant, If you don't - what's your problem?If you`re down - so ungrateful

And if you're happy - why so selfish? And you can't win, no You can't win, no…

The one who doesn't quite fit in, Underdressed Under your skin, oh A walking disaster!!!

Everytime you try to fly you end up falling out of line Oh, you can't YOU CAN'T WIN no

If you're thin Poor little walking disease, If you're not They're all screaming obese.

If you're straight why aren't you married yet? If you're gay why aren't you waving a flag?

If it's wrong, you're nailing it If it's right, you always miss You can't win, no...

This is where i was, i felt like no matter what choice i made someone would be mad or disappointed. like no matter what i did i was screwed in someones eyes. And my friends were all like evolving in such beautiful,painful, amazing ways. And even though some were tough or absolutely beautiful i was happy to see my close friends make this leaps, But deep down  i felt like i was stagnant, dark, judged and weak. and this song changed so much of that like I had to realize whats good for is not going to make everyone happy and i can parch about live your life to the fullest and I am just existing "What the Douce". So that had to change and the more i heard this song LIFE was clicking into a better place all around. It was the light I needed like, i can't win not matter what choice i make so fuck it I choose to be in a Perfectly Imperfect and Uniquely Perfect and if they don't get it then "Bye Bye". And i remembered seeing "ΓΝΩΘΙ ΣΑΥΤΟΝ"  when i was in both Germany and Greece. And that became my 13th tattoo for all the reasons i had been searching for the last 2+ years and i loved getting it. I could look in the mirror again and start to see Me and what I wanted and what was good for ME. and its funny because Me, Myself and I by Beyonce was another one of my first albums on the pre Vegas stick of Course ALL JANETS was 1st DUH. 

I guess here is the meat of it to me, you can't live in fear of others. So many of us live with choices we wish we could redo or hell undo and none of us is perfect but on this little time we here lets try to be the best version of us possible without the glare of everyones opinion. Because to Know Thyself gives you more happiness then anything else. This song got me cause its like you can't be Single and happy or your career has to matter to someone besides you or where you live effects too many people. I got to a better state when i looked into who i was and where i was and what i was doing. I went to church twice and life was getting better and better, you have be be able to look in the mirror and Love the flaws because the "You" that you present  to the world has to be the you everyone sees. 

To close this, I am so proud of the evolution of my Family (Not all Blood), life is happening and i can't wait to see old friends, be close to new friends, have everlasting memories,  keep the happiness going strong, and Know Thyself. Because losing in everyones eyes might mean you Finally Win!!!

*We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* *I See You…* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart* *Perfectly Imperfect* *Uniquely Perfect* *Know Thyself*"

<3 Ty L. Johnson

2013

Perfectly Imperfect (2013-01-07)

Perfectly-Imperfect

                I thought of so many songs these last couple months, and nothing stuck to me. Well actually a lot did but none really made me wanna write so I haven’t and then I thought about it, “go inward it’s been a while and you may have something to say” so here we are. I thought of songs and moments and everything in my life to date and a lot flooded in and a lot was talked about. Not just with the Cabinet of People in my Head but with Friends Family as well and some things stood out. 

                 I Am Loved…  And Words can’t express what that means to SEE IT. I See You…(Click the Link to Read it)  probably my favorite blog to date and it was done over 3 years ago, wow things change time flies when you’re having fun. I have had so many experiences I never thought I would have and so many moments of clarity it has been kind of surreal. Well I guess my first was the amazing revelation that I am so glad to be single and so OK with it, and for those who are single and feel like “This Sucks” you need some damn Me Time immediately with you, yourself, and a mirror. I have AWFUL sight when it comes to dating and relationships, I’m ok with that to a point.I know now is not my time so no fighting the Universe on this promise. I have learned that lesson too many times I’m over fighting what T.P.T.B. is trying to keep apart. I am extremely happy in this moment take that and let that be my gospel.

                You know everyone is put here for a reason and if the Universe (Or God) exists then we are all Destined to be and do different things. I was telling friends recently it’s when we deviate from PATH life lessons happen(Dark) and you make choices that will either send you further off path to Road blocks or more on path to the Happiness you read about in Fairy Tales which is just Reality in its least sinister form. And you don’t have to be Dying or Old to have that Happiness. Single, married, dating, or with kids, Life is the Sum of Choices you Make I believe it, and try to Live it 24/7. I felt GENUINE LOVE in people who I hadn’t seen me in 20, 14, 10, 6, 2 years and some I had just met. It was scary because so much of me feels different and out of place in the BEST WAY possible in this world and didn’t realize how many people LOVED IT and embraces that and Feeds on it and Smiles at it, respects it and ultimately SEES IT. It was so mind-blowing for me in a world so selfish and so Down with some terrible people that suck happiness, love and all that makes you feel special right out of you. So for me to feel that from friends, family, new spirits in my life both near and far, old face reappearing in different lights is Amazing it sent me back on Path because I let Life take me off Path for a while and I thought Never Again you got the Best of Me the Last time.

2 months Whew it has been one revelation after another, here is another one. Why don’t you have kids? Or are Married?, Why, Is my answer I don’t ask why you married why you have kids why you date some Duh da Duhs or hell why you happy. Because if you happy I am extra happy for you, but I don’t judge your life choices I could but why would I. And so the world is informed Hahaha I have a 17 year old daughter who I love more than the air I breathe. She is my God-Daughter as in the Universe (God) sent her to me and, charged me with loving her and giving her the Best of me so she knew she was Loved *Regardless and In Spite of*I didn’t tell a lot of people even close friends for the simple fact I knew what she meant to me but I know this world. Hell I didn’t give some the chance to judge or comment or know because she’s what life is worth Living for to me, no one could change that.

I mean living that Full Quality Loving Life and she drove me to be a better Man and to that goal daily. I missed so much because I made different life choices and she knows now that my love is regardless in and In Spite of. You can’t tell an adoptive parent, step parent, or foster parent that their love isn’t real or they don’t understand because they don’t have their own. I call bullshit I feel in some instances our love is more because we aren’t obligated to Love these people so our Love is selfless. Not because that’s our legacy or my heir because they are those to us as well, but that’s not our thoughts. Mine is “I want this spirit to know I am here for her until my body leaves this world then she got me forever.” 

                So to finish this up; Perfectly Imperfect to me is Loving All of You your scars, weight, baggage, flaws, gifts, quirks, light and accepting that you aren’t Perfect but your Imperfections make you Uniquely Perfect. So much more now than the past 27 years I guess life’s making more sense.  Basically LOVE YOU, I Love me and all that has happen in my life and all that I am. I’m willing to tell anyone that, and give an answer to any question asked to me. Really and truly I realized my Uniqueness and that it truly is not for everyone. But the Hearts that I have touched, the spirits I am connected with, or the People that get I See You then -I See You…- 

So please find your PERFECTLY IMPERFECT form Live, Love and be truly happy in your UNIQUELY PERFECT self.

*We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* *I See You…* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart* *Perfectly Imperfect**Uniquely Perfect*

<3 Ty

2013 

Bye Bye Love (2013-27-04)

Bye Bye Love

OK let me just start this with a firm I Love Pandora my special blend of Bruno Mars, Kelly Clarkson, and Janet Jackson is Amazballz. Well along the way I found this little treasure by Backstreet Boys called “Bye Bye Love” of the 2008 This is Us album. I dig the Song it is a great song and the lyrics I love and live in I will give you some of them and move forward.

 -Versus 1: You should be right here laying next to me, But baby you chose to love the hard way.You could be right here getting the best of me, But baby you decided he was your man.
And now that you're finding out, He's playing little games, you calling me again 
You say you want me around, But I'm not sure now if I wanna be down Soooo.. 
Chorus: I think I wanna stay single, Maybe we're better apart. See I don't want a girl that, only wanna come back Cause, some other man broke her heart So Bye Bye Love- 

I mean come on this is real man talk even though it’s a boy band. He is in that versus;  you not here with me u should be, then it gets real like you only calling cause the man you thought was top shelf really ain’t. Then in the chorus I lived “I think I wanna stay single so bye bye Love”. How many people feel that at times especially when you in 100% and out of the blue or when you know the BS is coming you get hit with the I am finding myself or I have time invested in him or I just need me right now. Then you see them with someone else or that when shit goes wrong in their life you are back on TOP. NO Ma’am I know it’s a broken record but I just don’t get tats for shits and giggles they mean everything to me and my latest “We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve” has me think every single day about my other one “Life is the Sum of Choices you Make”.

You have to know when to move forward cut your losses and as a song says “throw my hands up cause baby I tried”-Complicated by Rihanna check out that post it was a good one. Any who I think I like this song cause HE is telling her Goodbye I deserve better thanks for the memories and lessons learned. I smiled knowing that these lyrics are me it will give you another piece of this puzzle and then solve it.

-Crazy now the tables turn It wasn't long ago that you turned your back. 
Saying there's no way that we can work. And you were quick to move on to the next thing- 

I am good but now that you need a shoulder to lean on or realize Oops you made a boo-boo I need to be there Erroneous. I am good Single it has taken a lot of time out of me and a lot of Emotions to realize not everyone is meant to have a family I am an Amazing Godfather and I will an Awesome Uncle but if everyone was meant to have a family there would be an equal about of people so everyone would have someone but that’s not logical. I could fall in love every 5 years and that be enough cause Love and soul-mates, and the Hopeless Romantic in me all see that what I want may be just outside this realm of existence. I love seeing the friends I have and the people I have loved and still love having kids getting married and starting a families but, if one more person try to give me their remedy for Single life or the cure to a being in a relationship I will scream then detach their limbs. When I say I am ok being single I wholeheartedly mean it doesn’t mean I don’t want a family or someone that loves me and I love them and it works it just means I am ok in this space and my heart and the Hopeless Romantic in me just have to get what I am missing from the movies I watch the TV shows I love the books and quotes I live in and the Amazing Loyal Assassins/Ninjas I keep in my life.

So to shut this down Bye Bye Love isn't me shunning love I am just past the BS and to not be rude I am OK where I am I don’t wanna date (Pointless Waste of Time) and I have 3 amazing god-kids that I love and would take a bullet for so why do I need anymore then that if I Happy in that? Learn to Accept the things you cannot change and Change everything else and life won’t feel like a choir, you will feel ALIVE.

*Life is The Sum of Choices You Make* *Übermensch* *I See You…* * We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart*

Live, Love, Dance

<3 Ty Johnson

2013

LOYALTY

Loyalty

            I thought of this about a week ago.  And I think of it daily Loyalty is something that is tested.  And they show that concept in so many movies and TV shows that I love and completely engulf myself in. “Learn to be Loyal, without the Loyalty between us we are no better than the Beast at our Door” Great line from *Underworld: Rise of the Lycans*. This is something that breaks the traditional lines people make like mom, brother, sister, dad, best friend, girlfriend boyfriend , wife, husband, hell neighbor. Because if loyalty is tested and they aren’t, life changes and you have choices that needs to happen. I say that because people think those titles mean something in life, those are sometimes the titles that need testing most and are often severed first.

            I go back to ancient Assassin Guilds, Knight of the old Kingdom, and Warriors of Honor Samurai’s, that Loyalty was known and when it wasn’t Bye-Bye. In the X-men movies Choices had to be made and lines are drawn it works just the same in our day to day. People test you and in return you testing them in friendships sometimes you grow apart, as the Christians say everything has its season.  You can’t be friends with your childhood friends forever not all of them, Life happen people make choices and Loyalty is tested in different forms like in “Game of Thrones” Love the show to death but loyalty is more important than last names or blood bonds. And that’s how it should be just because we family doesn’t mean your awarded a free fuck me over card or because we are dating it’s a get out jail free card either. When the chips are down and you need someone it comes from the most unlikely but likely people.

            You know it sucks when you have someone you know and love and, Betrayal happens how do you recover or bounce back? You realize humans are flawed and not everyone is meant to be in your life in any capacity. Life is the Sum of Choices you Make some choices you have to let people go and move past the pain to be a better version of you. Life is fleeting and the little moments we have should be cherished and not spent dwelling on lil’ thing that in 5 years won’t mean a thing in your world. We as a world need to realize that not all that is and was will be forever. Change is inevitable and to fight change is to want to stay the same and progress is what leads to Evolution not stagnateness.

            I think I will close this out with a thought I tweaked it from a movie quote but of course I did. “I would trade the world and all its Riches to rid the World of Disloyal Bitches”, that is things you can’t buy on EBay like my Big and only Brother his loyalty is the stuff of Legends and I Love him tons he is my rock so to him his Loyalty is Forever…

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* *I See You…* * Infinite Love starts in the Heart* * We Accept the Love we Think we Deserve* *Übermensch*

Ty Johnson

<3 2012

Walking On Snow (2013-01-04)

Walking on Snow…

                So I have been trying to blog about Kelly Clarkson “Don’t Let Me Stop You”  and I was trying to feel it and it wasn’t working as a song in itself I live in it but I couldn’t express it on paper. So after 2 times last month and yesterday trying I finally moved on. Not because I didn’t love the song but because a new me arose. I had been nice then hateful for years with Ex’s and this Day not just about them but my nice and hateful found a happy blend and I thought of this song by Jordin Spark’s Sophomore Album “Battlefield”. When it came out I bought it, which if you know me means I love Jordin. Any who I Lived in the song back then danced at a gym in Vegas late nights and was like “This a hot move-on Song” but, I wasn’t there in my life. So this song came to me the moment I came into I blended, evolved, more-functioning me. I will give you lyrics then we can live together in the New Moment “Walking on Snow”...

-Versus - Your love was a waste of time, you've been left behind. You made no mark on me, you’re gone and you left no sign.

You’re not on my mind, don’t try to press rewind.

 Chorus - It’s like walking on snow, without leaving a trace. You’re not gonna see, gonna see this heart break.

You huff and you puff but I’m not blown away. When are you gonna get it I’m so unaffected.-

“I don’t hate you, but I no longer give a hot damn about your feeling or your existence in this universe (or the next).” I lived in the lyrics like the waste of time, the no rewind; it’s like walking on Snow without leaving a trace. I fell the first time I heard it lived all in the song even more the second time.  I hit for the first time my wall but not in a hateful way but in a WOW no need for anger or nicest in this world but an Honest Truth in Everything. I found some peace hearing this song and with the last 8 years or so of making some dumb decisions and Amazing Choices ALL Smiles hearing the lyrics and feeling what I felt then but with Life added to that made me jump behind the laptop. I am the first to say I understand I get it, yeah it’s ok, basically come use or hurt me lol. But this song played on repeat for a while and it smashed into me “Playing their game will never work” so I stop playing any game quit to the main menu and hit “Honest Truth”. At that point I didn’t give 2 pigeons’ (You know I hate birds) what happen or if they family was ok or if they were happy I was happy and that’s what mattered and those doors can now close with heavy locks and be tossed into the Laurention Abyss.

                I wanna say it is always a journey and never a destination which I think is my senior year motto which would be funny because my reunion is this year. Anyway journeys are long and some hurt more than others and some leave scars not all physical but anything that hinders your happiness is poison. When I watched that movie and got the tattoo I wrote a blog and now in writing this one it is still relevant. “Why do I and everyone I love fall for people who treat us like nothing? We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve”, that statement is so true.  Change that now not just for your personal happiness but so what you deserve is the world and shouldn’t settle for someone who won’t treat you that way. Life is too short it is not just a saying or a cliché its real the small amount of time we are here shouldn’t we make the best of it? Look back at your past on last time and Think of walking on Snow and see that the past is History and cannot be undone. Look forward and the Future is foggy and a Complete Mystery, and cannot be predicted. But today is a Gift that is why we call it “The Present”, enjoy it live it. Close those doors for you for your Happily Ever After for the Shooting for Stars Dreams that comes true.  My last is almost out so vibe off these lyrics and I will finish my thoughts.

- [Chorus 2:] it’s like walking on snow, without leaving a trace. When all that you said never carried no weight.
I came out untouched and in another place When ya gonna get it I’m so unaffected.-

To close this out “All that you said never carried no weight” just really got me. I think of it this way, once you come to a Honest Truth place all that was said and hurtful or just unnecessary is steam under I hot bridge. But a disclaimer from me your going to want to say a lot to a lot of Ex’s or just to a lot people who u start to see as a hinder now that prospective have switch a bit. It is up to you to act on them I did and will cause well you know me and with this new Weapon my mind is I am good to go. Those words those pains are in another place then you are now. So transcend and become the Übermensch in your life and start to see that shift in your personality knowing your worth, accepting nothing less, and Moving Forward. It’s Now April so I hope Life beings all of you not what you want but what you Need… And I wanna thank my Brother for being him and giving my new name an Amazballz birth Ty Johnson because Johnson is who I am Johnson is Me Long live the JOHNSON's now Kneel!!!

*Life is The Sum of Choices You Make* *Übermensch* *I See You…* * We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart*

<3 Ty Johnson

2013

You Will Be Loved (2013-18-03)

You Will Be Loved

       Ok March I will give you this you got meJ. But I mean that in the fact that for the first time in some years my Mind and Heart have been so in sync. I heard this song when her album first Dropped and prayed it wasn’t a single so only I could love it, and Nicole Scherzinger Killed this track off the “Killer Love” album. I will give you the first chuck and let you live in while I spill out my thoughts.

-Sometimes we give it all up just for love Just 2 find out that it wasn't luv at all Sometimes sometimes
Sometimes you want somebody in our bed So bad we giving ourselves Sometimes sometimes
[CHORUS:]So it ain't nothing wrong We thinking with our hearts

And letting someone near That storm might break you down
But you get up again And learn from your mistakes Forgive but don't forget Don't let it hold you back
Coz sooner or later YOU WILL BE LOVED.. –

So I Live in these lyrics I mean feel this with me. Oh my God “sometimes you give it all up for Love just to find out it wasn’t love at all”. WOW like seriously when you give all you have and get cheated and you feel hurt and it hit me. As a baby, child, and young kid people tell you how special you are, how amazing you can be, how beautiful we are. When did that change? When did it become ok to settle for someone who didn’t tell you all those amazing things that made your world and universe seem POSSIBLE? It shouldn’t have ever come but, I know I can say it has happen to me and that sucks.

Then you feel the rest of those lyrics “it aint nothing wrong we thinking with your Hearts and letting someone near, that storm might break you down But, you get up again and LEARN from your mistakes Forgive but DON’T FORGET don’t let it hold you back cuz sooner or later YOU WILL BE LOVED.” OMG I died came back to live and died again. Learn from it, move forward, and embrace new things. Don’t let the past hinder your future and poison you present (that’s a Gift). Live in the moments you have NOW, so what he/she was an ASS, hurt you, you felt broke you its ok to love again, trust, open up, LOVE. Don’t let the next one pay for the past they weren’t there. Forgive and move forward but never forget the lesson in it, don’t let it keep you down cuz sooner or later YOU WILL BE LOVED.

Love what can Love you like the little kid who walked in a room and the room feel in love with his smile, her eyes, his personality, her voice and his moves all at once. We all Deserve that and I say it because I watched “The Perks of Being a Wallflower” and I seriously thought it was the Best Movie of this Generation. In it the message is crazy they were living this song and the revelation came twice in the movie “We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve” I will give these last lyrics and wrap my mind up in a Easter Bow…

-Sometimes it feels like everything's going wrong And we feel like it's all our fault Sometimes sometimes
Sometimes we feel like when it's all said and done Like all of the love is never gonna come Sometimes.-

You know in some ways this is true it is our faults, we accept the Love we think we Deserve. But in the End you have the Choice cause we do feel like WHEN IS IT MY TURN? Make it your turn find peace alone or change your inner person to reflect better who you are now, let go and know sooner or later You Will Be Loved!!!!!!!!!

*We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* *I See You…* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart*

<3 Ty

2013 

It is What it Is (2013-16-02)

It is what it is

          Okay so I wanted to wait till after Valentine’s Day to write, that and I really had 3 songs in mind. Well this little gem of a song “It is what it is” is from Lifehouse and on the album Smoke & Mirrors. I heard this on Pandora cause I enjoy my mash-up stations and I screenshot the song so I could download it later and, I clearly hit repeat and downloaded the lyrics so here we are.

          The song for me is GREAT and not in a wow sad way but in a “Hey listen we tried let’s call it what it is” very grown and mature realization that “this isn’t going to work out so let’s stop while we still like each other”. I will put some of the lyrics down and go from there.

*“Somewhere in this city is a road I know where we could make it, but maybe there’s no Making it Now. *Chorus- Too we’ve been Denying now we’re both tired of Trying. We hit a wall and we can’t get over it. Nothing to relive its water under a bridge, You said it I get it I guess IT IS WHAT IT IS...”*

That’s dedication I listened to this song and reread the lyrics and I commend who ever the song is about. Because in my head I see 2 people who tried and when it got bad it was what it was and they could get pass that I respect that. Its like in so many relationships you both make escuses or reasons why you still together “we been together too long to just leave, or he will love me one day, or she isn’t that crazy” LOL. But in all that I think for me its hard to say damn we done it is what it is because I wanna know I did all I could to make it work and the road I saw us going down together is no longer there and accept that and move forward. The problem in that is every time your heart is broken it cant be healed that person takes that piece of you forever there is no “I just wanna be who I was before” you can’t that person is history you can only improve on what’s left and hope for the best.

I love that he says nothing to relive its water under a bridge, because so many times I find myself going damn I wish I could go back and redo that argument or that relationship choice or that time when… it’s hard to live in the present without looking in the past for validation or in the future for clarity. Like a great woman I love told me “I need someone who thinks like me and not afraid of getting hurt, someone at least willing to take a chance, someone to hold my hand in the scary parts of the movie/life.” I love that and I in the end it is not just you in the situation but only you can control what you say and how you act and no one can read minds so you have to communicate. I know now that sometimes we fight for thing that even the Powers that be try to keep apart we must learn when to let go and move on and move forward. I will give you the lt set of lyrics then it is what it is LOL.

*Here it comes ready or not we both found out its not how we thought that it would be. If the time could turn us around, what once was lost may be found for you and me.*

I get it I See it and it moves me, and I see that a lot in my life and in my friends and I love cause its so true we do that a lot “lets start over and get back to how were”. And that’s deadly cause you aren’t those people anymore and to try to go back is not healthy and too much WORK. But I will sum it up and finish it off with this I watched –The Perks of Being a Wallflower- and the movie seriously changed my life, I see so much in different eyes then I thought I wouldn’t have. So many parts were Epic but I will say on my right Rib coming this spring *We Accept the Love we think we Deserve* that movie moved me and I know who I am so much more going into 2013 and I control that spirit and this body I am Perfectly Flawed and Perfectly Beautiful. And when you start to realize that about yourselves you humans will finally begin to evolve… I know I have and the light feels good on my skin!!!!

-I See You…-

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

+Infinite Love Starts in the Heart+

^We Accept the Love we Think we Deserve^

<3 Ty 2013

When It was Me (2013-22-01)

-When It Was Me-

            Talk about a good song, not for me this time but definitely a repeater in my playlists of love and or heartbreak songs. Its is on a good young artist Paula Deanda album it is a secret nugget to me I loved it when it first came out and then it just laid dormant until I heard it on my Pandora and searched my ITunes and found it again and hit repeat. The song for me is “miss your water once the well is bone dry” / “envious of the new girl” type song. I will hit you with some lyrics then get to the reason I can’t sleep tonight. 

–Long brown hair all down her back, so the hell what’s so special about that. She used to model shes done some acting so she weighs a buck 05. And I guess that she’s alright if perfection is what you like.-

            So clearly the jealous comparing side of a break up, I cant say I have ever been the “well look at her new man he aint got nothing on me” type after I am done I am quite done once I shut my light off and not like maybe it will get better type thing but a I wish you the best goodbye forever kind of let go I could care less who or what they doing. But I guess it some occasions it must be hard to see someone you loved or cared about with someone else I personally have and just chalked it up to not my right kind of crazy and I wished her well and him and kept it moving. Life is Short and fleeting and you have to live in the moment you have while you have it. I will give you some more lyrics to soak in.

-I’m not Jealous, no I’m not I just want everything she got. You look at her so amazed I remember way back when you used to look at me that way.                                                                                                             Chorus: Tell me what makes her so much better than me, what makes just everything I could never be, what makes her your every dream and fantasy cause I can remember when It was me.-

            I was like in my bathroom washing my face and it was on Pandora and I tried to rewind it because I thought I heard her wrong so that when I snapshot it and pulled it up and hit repeat. That person in this relationship is so sad and yet so defensive her walls it up but her heart is hurting. I feel her just because this woman isn't just comparing and contrasting she is remembering when he gave her the world as well, its like Misery x3. It is funny because I felt no attachment to this song in my life which is rare in a blog song to not feel the song in a personal way, but then I hear it hundred times and it hits me she messed up. I hear it and I see her breaking his heart and then seeing that he is happy with someone else and she starts the what’s wrong with me thing. I find it a beautiful song and so strong emotionally and how it could relate to the life someone is living right now. If you have to ask someone what makes you special you don’t belong with them. If you have to guess the whole time then its time to move on, if you don’t know if tomorrow they will love you hit the ground running. You determine your Worth, your Love intake etc. So don’t make someone a Priority when you’re just their Option. I started choreographing a lyrical piece to the song that’s what I was getting from it. I see that a lot if not more then most of my entries are about love and relationships and its just because I am a Hopeless Romantic I want what some of these songs sing about and I want to learn from what the rest sing about like the quote says “You listen to the beat when your happy, you hear the lyrics when your sad.” I personally always hear lyrics I love music and where it takes you and I love that I can go there on my journey and include the people who read my blogs thank you so much and keep checking in to see whats in my head at any given moment… Live, Love, Kneel before Zod (sorry that was suppose to be) Dance.

<3 Ty 2013

-I See You…-

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

+Infinite Love Starts in the Heart+

Betta Love Me (2013-15-01)

Betta Love Me (Right)

So I have been on a music kick since 89 but in the last 5-7 years I found I love lyrics so much. Maybe I started listening more or they spoke to me because I felt the song was my situation or I just loved the lyrics weather it was a love song or a break up song or my jam while I am working out or dancing.  This song by Ne-Yo is all but a workout song I can’t work out to this LOL; I think I love this song because very rarely does the guy complain about not being loved enough or needing more. I dig it it’s a real problem in this world and need to be addressed Ha school is now in session. So for me I relate on a personal level I think as a man for me it is not just about sex and how hot she is, it take a lot more to make something work so here is my argument or the basis behind me and this song. 

-All night waiting for you to call, Is there any love left in your heart for me at all?  Though you say you Love me it’s the Love I Fear. If you gonna Love me Better Love right, Not just when you wanna get close to me late at Night.-

I loved it to hear a man sing about what Tamia, Janet, Nicole some of my favorites always sing about, asking for more not in a bad way but in an I Deserve more way. It hit home because it doesn't take much to be in a relationship Honesty, attraction, communication, and the rest either falls into place or falls apart. In versus 2, I had to raise my hand because I felt me saying these lyrics to more than just 1 or 2 women in my day. 

- How can I give you all my love when it’s clear you can’t give me as much, I won’t play these games no more I’m all out of moves. If you wanna trust in my love you’ll never Lose.-

I must say I was a little thrown because in his other track let me love you until you love yourself I was like I dig that I could be that guy then I hear this and I see the difference. In this it’s a woman who just don’t wanna give more of herself and in the other one it was a woman who couldn't give what she don’t have yet. But in my life I have met some amazing humans both women and men with amazing hearts who I love so much, as well as those humans that just made me feel not enough, or finally the ones who just needed love and once they sucked you dry they needed to move on for whatever reason. I have learned more then I would have thought in recent years and in talking to friends and listening to not just friends but people in general it’s so hard now in this time to date or make relationships work. If it isn't Race or Religion its trust or lack of communication or one of the 2 is just a leech or asshole. I will quote the last of my memorable lyrics then finish this thought process out.

 - How can I make you see it Baby, when loving me there aint no Maybe either you do or you don’t either you will or you won’t-

I just have always been a hopeless romantic the stories the books the movies the pictures and sometimes I see the bitterness of the world creep in or the lack of faith show its ugly head. I have to remind myself +Life is the Sum of Choices you Make+ and in saying that I either choose to stay or walk away. At some point you lose faith and you get dark and angry at everyone for a few people hurting you or taking advantage of your heart, I wake up daily and remind myself why I am the way I am. I find comfort in knowing everyone is different and she is out there and maybe not now or in the near future but if someone’s gonna love me they need to be all in or not at all because in settling for  something that isn't what you deserve you lose so much of you.  I challenge myself and anyone to just GO HARD or go home. I love because I love LOVE and Dance is my first Love after that anyone who is open to me I am open to them, and that is for all relationships. So if you’re with someone and you know you deserve better SAY something NOW, and if you’re looking know what you’re looking for and if your Single enjoy knowing that LOVING yourself is enough for now and Save some Money!!!

<3 Ty 2013

-I See You…-

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

+Infinite Love Starts in the Heart+

I Want You (2013-01-01)

I Want You  

Happy New Year I hope everyone had an amazing New Years and that 2013 is starting off in the right direction. I haven’t slept yet because I took inventory of my life I was thinking to do this before new years but I think it is a great start to a new year.

So the song is by Luke James who sings so amazing in this song and I heard the lyrics and I was hooked I will lay out the lines and then spill my first blog of 2013.

Before I met you girl I never knew my heart could dance, listen I was just a broken record of an one night stand. Until you came along, with your beautiful soul You saved me, you saved me, you saved me. And now the funny thing about it, There's no melody without it
I found music when I found you So hear me when I say I WANT YOU.

I’m not writing about a one person at all, I am talking about DANCE.  The lyrics hold true for my first passion my first love Dance. Like he puts I didn’t know I could dance before we met. Dance is a beautiful thing that has saved me on more occasions then I would like to admit. It cracks me up cause I loved this song when I heard it and I thought of what this song meant to me I initially thought of women and how that feeling is but it wasn’t that at all and then it hit me DANCE. There is something about the words that makes me think of my love for my first love and how in the song he goes “and the funny thing about it, there’s no melody without it I found music when I found you.” Because for me that sentence is dance for me, I looked and realized I left home 10 years ago this year to travel and quote unquote “Make It”. I was looking back reflecting as most do before and right after a new year and we have been together now 24 years and it has been an amazing experience. I could not have asked to meet better people or dance on such beautiful stages and see so much of this world before 30, I am overjoyed and truly blessed and if tomorrow didn’t come I would lived more than a full life.

I guess it is kind of sad to write this because I have so debated and so tried to find a better way to say it but I have wanted Dance for over 6 months now and that distance has made me distant and detached and until recently I wasn’t ok with it I fought it. But 30 is creeping up and I know now I need a break so I am legally separating from performing at least till my birthday. I need this I think it is choices I need to make things in my life seem more clear and it’s been foggy too damn long. Life is the Sum of Choices you Make and I told myself in 1999 when I got my first professional gig if the day comes when I don’t absolutely love it I will step away from it and TODAY is it. I have wanted to feel that love, passion, and comfort for a while and I just haven’t maybe it will come back soon but until then I am switching up my gears and I don’t know what 2013 holds for me but I know now I have a direction and a goal and Happiness is in top 3.

So I leave you world with this “Infinite Love starts in the Heart” but along the way has things in your way and you have to learn to adapt. “Life is the Sum of Choices you Make” so don’t have regrets and live as if tomorrow won’t come. 2013 I hope brings everyone the Clarity, Calmness, Love, Passion, Hope and anything you think you want to happen. In the absence of light Darkness rules until you wake up and see the light at the end of the Tunnel this is my light for NOW…

Live, Love, Dance

-I See You…-

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

+Infinite Love Starts in the Heart+  

Ty 2013