The Best Thing I Never Had (6-26-2011)

    So to start this off “THANK GOD I FOUND THE GOOD IN GOOD-BYE” And true story I love this saying and the meaning behind it and I feel it completely. Thank God I found I the good thing about saying good-bye, sometime the hardest thing to say is good bye but in listening this song and before that actually living its crazy how so much has changed and how much is clear and in focus for the first time in my life the good thing about good bye is that it is not forever it is forever to the people it needs to be forever for. But on the other side its good I found the good in goodbye because it was too freakin hard to say good bye Colette, Amanda T, Amanda P, Carrie, Junebug, Shelby, Steve B, Sara, Chad, Bobbie, Jonah, Erik, Joey L, Mary, Jesse, (I can go on for another page you all know I love you). I Know now it wasn’t good bye it was see you later see you sooner then later. Good times or bad I wanted them to know you’re my family you’re my rock on which I grow from and know that you will always be there weather in my worse of worse moments or watching Smallville on your couch, or eating all types of hours or drunken craziness, or just listening to each other talk about the fact I have known you way too long. In any case it has been a trip to say life has been a series of “fortunate” accidents. I am blessed and so happy for all the fiends I made on this contract Meghan, Danii, Skye, Kevin, Elisa, Ann- Marie, Katrina, Igor, Hanna,Todd  I could go on for a while but you get the point that so many people have and are still caring and loving and there trough thick and thin. I wish in some other dimension I could get all my friends both past and present to just meet an say Hey I knew HIM at this point in his life you guys both past and present I think about so many of you constantly and in the little stories I have in this not you know who some of you are. LOL On that I am so threw with BS I have seen a lot and been through so much and have had friends be more then just a friend but a saving grace and that’s when you separate the good from the great, I love every thing I have been through in the last 2+ decades I wish I could have seen the forest from the trees sooner but now I can and I have and now I am a lot happier because I can smell BS coming a mile away and I can no thanks next. You know I know I talk so much either online or in person the difference is if you are reading this you wanna hear me talk hahaha. I truly Love the title because it hold true on a lot of topics. I am so glad for most people I am the best thing they will never have, I love me all of me I am watching Buffy from the beginning and her and Angel are Bella & Edward of my time. Angel would watch Buffy sleep and it was hot and he was scared of the damn sun LOL Random I know but true. Okay back on topic. Sorry you know I get side tracked I would love to mention everyone in my life that have been good or even great. And given the right encouragement (Alcohol) I would love to mention the blessing goodbye has brought me. I was talking to some pretty awesome friends who just got married and I miss them but I remember who I was when I met both of them and who I am know and its crazy how life can change and things go. Its also amazing that when can sit on Skype for 2 hours just laughing and talking about everything that we used to love, what we love now, and just kick it. Life is also amazing how you can be so close to someone then life happens and you fall out you separate and that void is so not easily filled then, 1 of you has to have the courage to say listen either we fix this or I will burn your house down. The best part about being an adult is making better decisions then you did before and I love that I can now. The best thing about the song is for me just the realness of it I got it I get it I love it its pure honest and fun. I needed this song because it reminds me life experiences and the things I miss and thankful for the things that are gone. Okay in closing I feel obligated to say if  you are upset I didn’t mention you don’t be your in my <3 or on the other side thank God I found the good-bye. Stay classy San Diego!! Live, Love, Dance