Perfectly-Imperfect
I thought of so many songs these
last couple months, and nothing stuck to me. Well actually a lot did but none really
made me wanna write so I haven’t and then I thought about it, “go inward it’s
been a while and you may have something to say” so here we are. I thought of
songs and moments and everything in my life to date and a lot flooded in and a
lot was talked about. Not just with the Cabinet of People in my Head but with
Friends Family as well and some things stood out.
I Am Loved… And Words can’t express what that means to SEE
IT. I See You…(Click the Link to Read it) probably my favorite blog to date and it was
done over 3 years ago, wow things change time flies when you’re having fun. I
have had so many experiences I never thought I would have and so many moments
of clarity it has been kind of surreal. Well I guess my first was the amazing
revelation that I am so glad to be single and so OK with it, and for those who
are single and feel like “This Sucks” you need some damn Me Time immediately
with you, yourself, and a mirror. I have AWFUL sight when it comes to dating
and relationships, I’m ok with that to a point.I know now is not my time so no
fighting the Universe on this promise. I have learned that lesson too many
times I’m over fighting what T.P.T.B. is trying to keep apart. I am extremely
happy in this moment take that and let that be my gospel.
You know everyone is put here
for a reason and if the Universe (Or God) exists then we are all Destined to be
and do different things. I was telling friends recently it’s when we deviate from
PATH life lessons happen(Dark) and you make choices that will either send you
further off path to Road blocks or more on path to the Happiness you read about
in Fairy Tales which is just Reality in its least sinister form. And you don’t
have to be Dying or Old to have that Happiness. Single, married, dating, or
with kids, Life is the Sum of Choices you Make I believe it, and try to Live it
24/7. I felt GENUINE LOVE in people who I hadn’t seen me in 20, 14, 10, 6, 2
years and some I had just met. It was scary because so much of me feels
different and out of place in the BEST WAY possible in this world and didn’t realize
how many people LOVED IT and embraces that and Feeds on it and Smiles at it,
respects it and ultimately SEES IT. It was so mind-blowing for me in a world so
selfish and so Down with some terrible people that suck happiness, love and all
that makes you feel special right out of you. So for me to feel that from
friends, family, new spirits in my life both near and far, old face reappearing
in different lights is Amazing it sent me back on Path because I let Life take
me off Path for a while and I thought Never Again you got the Best of Me the
Last time.
2 months Whew it has been one revelation after another, here
is another one. Why don’t you have kids? Or are Married?, Why, Is my answer I don’t
ask why you married why you have kids why you date some Duh da Duhs or hell why
you happy. Because if you happy I am extra happy for you, but I don’t judge
your life choices I could but why would I. And so the world is informed Hahaha
I have a 17 year old daughter who I love more than the air I breathe. She is my
God-Daughter as in the Universe (God) sent her to me and, charged me with
loving her and giving her the Best of me so she knew she was Loved *Regardless
and In Spite of*I didn’t tell a lot of people even close friends for the simple
fact I knew what she meant to me but I know this world. Hell I didn’t give some
the chance to judge or comment or know because she’s what life is worth Living
for to me, no one could change that.
I mean living
that Full Quality Loving Life and she drove me to be a better Man and to that
goal daily. I missed so much because I made different life choices and she
knows now that my love is regardless in and In Spite of. You can’t tell an
adoptive parent, step parent, or foster parent that their love isn’t real or
they don’t understand because they don’t have their own. I call bullshit I feel
in some instances our love is more because we aren’t obligated to Love these people
so our Love is selfless. Not because that’s our legacy or my heir because they
are those to us as well, but that’s not our thoughts. Mine is “I want this
spirit to know I am here for her until my body leaves this world then she got
me forever.”
So to finish this up; Perfectly
Imperfect to me is Loving All of You your scars, weight, baggage, flaws, gifts,
quirks, light and accepting that you aren’t Perfect but your Imperfections make you
Uniquely Perfect. So much more now than the past 27 years I guess life’s making
more sense. Basically LOVE YOU, I Love
me and all that has happen in my life and all that I am. I’m willing to tell anyone
that, and give an answer to any question asked to me. Really and truly I
realized my Uniqueness and that it truly is not for everyone. But the Hearts
that I have touched, the spirits I am connected with, or the People that get I
See You then -I See You…-
So please
find your PERFECTLY IMPERFECT form Live, Love and be truly happy in your UNIQUELY
PERFECT self.
*We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve* *Life is the Sum of
Choices you Make* *I See You…* *Infinite Love Starts in the Heart* *Perfectly Imperfect**Uniquely
Perfect*
<3 Ty
2013
