I like that title it fits in so well for right now in my universe I love it its not bitter, jaded, or upset it just is and that is great. Ironically it is the title to a song by the lovely and amazing Nicole Scherzinger. It is some powerful words behind this song I first heard it right after I finished my last Blog which was right before I got on board the ship and let me just say so much has happen. I love the things that’s happening in my life, life has a funny way of giving you exactly what you need when you need it. You know I remember moving to Las Vegas thinking I never want to do ships again I had my fun I seen the world and well that was that. I come back and even in rehearsal I was thrown by how much I loved the environment of so many dancers from everywhere just dancing. 3 casts in and out of rehearsal in a gorgeous facility and just the whole rehearsal period of 8 hours of dance. Then we get to this floating city and I am taken back by the whole life all over again the put-ins, costume fittings, handover parties, opening night nerves, and finally random night of random events with random people LOL.
I choose this title because I love what she sings about in this song it is true and real and hurtful and a bit pissed off and I get it. To say to someone don’t hold your breath is powerful, people think in all cultures they have that power over you and if you allow them they do and that is what could make the most decent of people do awful things. If we don’t allow that to happen or you cut it off before it becomes a part of who you are then good on you. She says “I loved you so much that I thought that you could change and all you brought me is a heart full of pain”. She also goes on to say “your days gone lets face facts the bad movie ends and the screen fades to black”. When you think about the meaning behind all she is saying and what do you get from it I get it Love, even Like is a fickle thing and you have to have the stomach to deal with rejection and with acceptance. “If you think I’m coming back Don’t Hold Your Breath” I love that it is exactly what it is sometimes we get so sweep up in the world we know that we miss so much in the actual world that’s going on without us even knowing it. We had a beautiful royal wedding that I watched and loved, we have so many wars going on and the killing of a major terrorist I am not even going to touch on the weather. Look up and smile that you alive and well and know things could be better.
Sorry another tangent but I look up and think where would I be if I didn’t leave Michigan or I didn’t leave Disney I don’t know but I do know the people along the way that made this journey difficult and yet I am thankful for them even more then the ones I love dearly and those people know who they are. But without the enemies, back stabbing friends, and well the crazies you lay in bed with you truly don’t appreciate the amazing friends you have in your life trust me I know I have had my fair share of fake friends, awful people, and SHITTY relationships. I look back and I don’t know why I never had the strength to leave or stand up I guess those bad movies ended and the screened faded to black and now I write my life well only certain parts LOL I can only live with the circumstances I put myself in and that is all I would ask to do.
“Life is the Sum of Choices you Make” make some wrong choices and grow from them, make good and enjoy them.
-I Don’t live for the enjoyment of Others
-I See You…-
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