The UNKNOWN it is so well unknown and that is the intrigue the lure
the attraction that is so cool to me right now in my life. I just got
another year older which means so much has happen in 365 days it isn’t
even funny jobs, friends, change life in motion and not stopping along
the way just brief pauses. In less then a month I will be unemployed and
have so many things to think about dance, life, love, and well life
again. It’s not the woes of school, or bad kids, or upset wife or
girlfriend, awful job, long hours which be reason to freak or not. I am
wondered I my make a bad decision it wouldn’t be the first time but
that’s why I am so up in the air. Those so called missteps made me who I
am now and I wouldn’t change that even if I could because I would be a
different version of me an Alternate Universe Ty (Fringe reference).
UNKNOWN is my comfort zone well it used to be now I freak out about
rent, bills, money, life, girls, people, weather, clothes. I remember I
simpler me unmoved by the world just went with it the Earth turned and I
lived in my world which turned flipped, danced, laughed, cried all
things that are so forced now why? I freak out about what I cant control
I cant control peoples feelings, circumstance it is how I react to
these situations that define me(not) because I don’t need a definition
but just a reason for being. I am falling in love with the unknown again
it is a great feeling I recommend it anyone who needs to jump head
first. My amazing mom would tell me and my bro this quote as we were
growing up so we wouldn’t let women break our hearts. “Ed Tim jump in
feet first so about time you get knee deep you will find out how full of
shit she really is, because when you jump in head first its to close to
your heart.” Take that leap to the unknown it is scary as hell but
worth the pee n your pants LOL. I think I may buy a one way ticket to
anywhere and play it by ear or propose to the woman of my dreams, I may
live for a bit, dance because it fun. Who knows that’s why they call it
the UNKNOWN. I know better then most its hard to say bye I think it gets
easier each time but it’s a façade I miss them soo much all of you
weather it has been 7 months or 7 years I miss you. If I go off grind
accept it, if I get engaged deal with it, if I move to Europe dammit get
skype. But embrace the life’s you have they are amazing moms, college
grad, beautiful showgirls, awesome dancer, hot wifes, strong, amazing
men cheers to you all for living your life’s I love you all. I want to
take those leaps those moments of UNKNOWN that changes the way I look at
this world that looked so different years ago. Look at it better then I
did before and different then I do now, well at the end I start at the
beginning the UNKNOWN is intriguing, alluring, scary, and fun if you let
HELL if I let it…
-I See You…-
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