I Want You (2013-01-01)

I Want You  

Happy New Year I hope everyone had an amazing New Years and that 2013 is starting off in the right direction. I haven’t slept yet because I took inventory of my life I was thinking to do this before new years but I think it is a great start to a new year.

So the song is by Luke James who sings so amazing in this song and I heard the lyrics and I was hooked I will lay out the lines and then spill my first blog of 2013.

Before I met you girl I never knew my heart could dance, listen I was just a broken record of an one night stand. Until you came along, with your beautiful soul You saved me, you saved me, you saved me. And now the funny thing about it, There's no melody without it
I found music when I found you So hear me when I say I WANT YOU.

I’m not writing about a one person at all, I am talking about DANCE.  The lyrics hold true for my first passion my first love Dance. Like he puts I didn’t know I could dance before we met. Dance is a beautiful thing that has saved me on more occasions then I would like to admit. It cracks me up cause I loved this song when I heard it and I thought of what this song meant to me I initially thought of women and how that feeling is but it wasn’t that at all and then it hit me DANCE. There is something about the words that makes me think of my love for my first love and how in the song he goes “and the funny thing about it, there’s no melody without it I found music when I found you.” Because for me that sentence is dance for me, I looked and realized I left home 10 years ago this year to travel and quote unquote “Make It”. I was looking back reflecting as most do before and right after a new year and we have been together now 24 years and it has been an amazing experience. I could not have asked to meet better people or dance on such beautiful stages and see so much of this world before 30, I am overjoyed and truly blessed and if tomorrow didn’t come I would lived more than a full life.

I guess it is kind of sad to write this because I have so debated and so tried to find a better way to say it but I have wanted Dance for over 6 months now and that distance has made me distant and detached and until recently I wasn’t ok with it I fought it. But 30 is creeping up and I know now I need a break so I am legally separating from performing at least till my birthday. I need this I think it is choices I need to make things in my life seem more clear and it’s been foggy too damn long. Life is the Sum of Choices you Make and I told myself in 1999 when I got my first professional gig if the day comes when I don’t absolutely love it I will step away from it and TODAY is it. I have wanted to feel that love, passion, and comfort for a while and I just haven’t maybe it will come back soon but until then I am switching up my gears and I don’t know what 2013 holds for me but I know now I have a direction and a goal and Happiness is in top 3.

So I leave you world with this “Infinite Love starts in the Heart” but along the way has things in your way and you have to learn to adapt. “Life is the Sum of Choices you Make” so don’t have regrets and live as if tomorrow won’t come. 2013 I hope brings everyone the Clarity, Calmness, Love, Passion, Hope and anything you think you want to happen. In the absence of light Darkness rules until you wake up and see the light at the end of the Tunnel this is my light for NOW…

Live, Love, Dance

-I See You…-

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

+Infinite Love Starts in the Heart+  

Ty 2013