1/22/2013

When It was Me (2013-22-01)


-When It Was Me-

            Talk about a good song, not for me this time but definitely a repeater in my playlists of love and or heartbreak songs. Its is on a good young artist Paula Deanda album it is a secret nugget to me I loved it when it first came out and then it just laid dormant until I heard it on my Pandora and searched my ITunes and found it again and hit repeat. The song for me is “miss your water once the well is bone dry” / “envious of the new girl” type song. I will hit you with some lyrics then get to the reason I can’t sleep tonight. 

–Long brown hair all down her back, so the hell what’s so special about that. She used to model shes done some acting so she weighs a buck 05. And I guess that she’s alright if perfection is what you like.-

            So clearly the jealous comparing side of a break up, I cant say I have ever been the “well look at her new man he aint got nothing on me” type after I am done I am quite done once I shut my light off and not like maybe it will get better type thing but a I wish you the best goodbye forever kind of let go I could care less who or what they doing. But I guess it some occasions it must be hard to see someone you loved or cared about with someone else I personally have and just chalked it up to not my right kind of crazy and I wished her well and him and kept it moving. Life is Short and fleeting and you have to live in the moment you have while you have it. I will give you some more lyrics to soak in.

-I’m not Jealous, no I’m not I just want everything she got. You look at her so amazed I remember way back when you used to look at me that way.                                                                                                             Chorus: Tell me what makes her so much better than me, what makes just everything I could never be, what makes her your every dream and fantasy cause I can remember when It was me.-

            I was like in my bathroom washing my face and it was on Pandora and I tried to rewind it because I thought I heard her wrong so that when I snapshot it and pulled it up and hit repeat. That person in this relationship is so sad and yet so defensive her walls it up but her heart is hurting. I feel her just because this woman isn't just comparing and contrasting she is remembering when he gave her the world as well, its like Misery x3. It is funny because I felt no attachment to this song in my life which is rare in a blog song to not feel the song in a personal way, but then I hear it hundred times and it hits me she messed up. I hear it and I see her breaking his heart and then seeing that he is happy with someone else and she starts the what’s wrong with me thing. I find it a beautiful song and so strong emotionally and how it could relate to the life someone is living right now. If you have to ask someone what makes you special you don’t belong with them. If you have to guess the whole time then its time to move on, if you don’t know if tomorrow they will love you hit the ground running. You determine your Worth, your Love intake etc. So don’t make someone a Priority when you’re just their Option. I started choreographing a lyrical piece to the song that’s what I was getting from it. I see that a lot if not more then most of my entries are about love and relationships and its just because I am a Hopeless Romantic I want what some of these songs sing about and I want to learn from what the rest sing about like the quote says “You listen to the beat when your happy, you hear the lyrics when your sad.” I personally always hear lyrics I love music and where it takes you and I love that I can go there on my journey and include the people who read my blogs thank you so much and keep checking in to see whats in my head at any given moment… Live, Love, Kneel before Zod (sorry that was suppose to be) Dance.
<3 Ty 2013
-I See You…-
*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*
+Infinite Love Starts in the Heart+

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