Disaster (2012-10-03)

CONCLUSION 2 - Give You Me (03-10-2012)

So I fumbled on this song from a younger artist who I haven’t heard from in a while JoJo it is a great video and the lyrics are quite beautiful. I didn’t write in September cause well last year I had a lot to say and a lot had happen that month that I wanted to be spill out and scream out. Well this year wasn’t bad at all by any standard but I felt the need not to write last month.

          Well in this moment I have my mind filled with thoughts so I got behind the music gears and this song popped up. So some lyrics to type about;

“I'm trying not to pretend that it won't happen again and again like that. Never thought it would end, but you got up in my head and my head like that. You made me happy baby, but love is crazy, so amazing. But it's changing, rearranging don't think I can take anymore.

[Chorus] Cuz the walls burned up and our love fell down and it turned into whatever now we're saying never. Feel the fire cuz it's all around and it's burning for forever and always. We gotta let it go, be on our way Look for another day, cuz it ain't the same my baby. Watch it all fall to the ground No happy ever after, just DISASTER”

So it is a break up song and a sad song shocking but true. I don’t care I love, loving and I love what love stands for and, what the fairy tales and romantic comedies, and beautiful songs all have in common LOVE. I think the song is so nice the strength in those lyrics and the meaning driving them home. I’m in love with the lyrics loving is hard loving someone is harder. You have to come to terms with these simple truths that all love isn’t forever and all things end. Those aren’t bad concepts; just know in some of those things that end is a DISASTER.

It is hard to think that things can change but it is something that is inevitable. You have to know that love is hard and it doesn’t always work out. But in these moments you get some great opportunities to personally move you in a better direction. And in others it is as the titled says a Disaster, you have to realize that it is extremely hard to cope or deal when disaster strikes but with the right friends and mindset the disaster is just a storm not a Hurricane.  Catch this Breakdown;

“You shot the bullet, you shot the bullet that killed me, not feeling my heart beat, and now it's dying. I am through it, I-I am through all the agony, Now my eyes are drying, drying, No more crying, Lying's just a game. So disaster strikes, And I'm alright' cause my love's on its way.”

I love this; after all that she did in making them work this happen and she realized it’s not worth the tears or heartache so she moves on. The heart can only take so much pain before it gives in and let’s go, you can’t come back from some things. People have to realize the consequences of the choices they make, often it’s hard to think of someone else in the selfish world we live in today but it’s not so difficult to put someone first until disaster hits.

I think it is just hard to think another relationship done and over and all you have is the scars from it and all you can do is pick up the pieces and move forward. I love by the end breakdown she is fine and she sings “Disaster strikes and I’m alright cause my love is on the way” I love that line it is so true cause once the blow to your heart is evident  you see the forest from the trees. You start to see that this may have been the best thing to happen to you. When the Disaster is over when does past? Its crazy simple but stupid hard just Give Me You (Ohh Full Circle) the real you the person I see forever with and if that’s too much to ask then this Disaster can’t be fixed.  

Ok for my last thoughts both songs and posts mean so much to me I love the songs so much and the lyrics mean everything to me. I guess you wait for someone to be who you saw when you realized the game changed and when disaster hits its like all I wanted was You no gimmick Give Me You and that was too hard. The best part about a Disaster is the rebuild afterwards you can make changes reinforce the right wing (Batman reference) know what not to do the next time or look disaster in the eye and say listen let’s try this from the top without all the shit that just happen and learn to love again…

Forgiveness is so much more then saying sorry!! And to Love someone that may not be good for you is a hard pill to swallow, But Life is the Sum of Choices you Make and if I See You.. for all that you are and for what you bring to my life then just Give Me You so we can avert the next Disaster together!!!

Ty 2012  

Give Me You (2012-10-03)

Give Me You

I thought to write of this the day this album came out and I played it out like 200 times in 2 days for 2 reasons, what the song sounded in my head emotionally & what the song made me think about my career and recent Decisions.I said to myself “self if you like this song and things do or don’t change blog it” I said other self your right. So here we are things have changed and I still love this song so we will kick this one off with some lyric reference;

“Sexy words don‘t mean that much to Me Cause I heard just about Everything. That a man could ever Say To me to make me Stay. Before now I need More…

Chorus: So don’t bring me Roses, Bring me the Truth Don’t buy me Diamonds, Cause that just won’t Do Material things I can buy myself if I really want To I need something Special, I need something New Just Give Me You.”

I am going to address the obvious in my head the relationship portion I think its not to much to ask to just want the person, I mean I know me and I am a lot to handle (at times) but is that too much to ask for in someone I don’t want a lot I just want you… I will hit one more lyrics section then all my thoughts will pour onto the page about the song.

Things of this World don’t mean that much to Me I need your Heart and I need Honesty If all you’ve got is Flashiness then Please Turn around and Leave.”

         So I completely get this song on so many levels and relate in so many ways. I think for me I know how I am and I know who I am in relationships I am the lover the friend the quality time gift giving physical contact person. I love when it’s a connection it works but, don’t think I need things or broken promises, unfulfilled desires, inability to commit, or fear of the concept of us. I just need you someone who loves me and lets me love them, excited to call me your man and content that I am enough.

       I think people get so caught up in the façade and the masks they wear in relationships to keep someone when you can be who you are and go from there. Give Me You is such an easy yet difficult concept I don’t want the show or the front or all the flashiness as Tamia put it. I Love the “don’t bring me Roses just bring me the truth”. Personally I am so there don’t blow smoke up my ass or say what you think I wanna hear to make me stay look at me and say what you need to say. The thought of loneliness is a fear of mine everyone knows that I am a hopeless romantic that doesn’t mean my standards are too high that just means step your love game up. You know why I love the past besides the music and clothes and dialogue, it was the way Love was portrayed in each era. The Romans, and Greeks and Egyptians they love was seriously eternal they got buried together LOL. But then you look at westrern culture I love the courtship the give and take the 2 equally showing up to the event we call life. Makes me so happy the 1800’s, 30,40, 60, 70’s all amazing times to just Love.

    I guess I wanted to just write about this song and how amazing it is and what it meant to me. It may be hard or seem impossible to do but giving yourself to someone is the most selfless thing you can do. And when your with someone or at a crossroads with someone that concept can make you love that person more for sampling Giving you them. Or force you to see that maybe forever isn’t with this person and that may be ok. You see the change in yourself as if just Give Me You is all you wanted and you could get that and it will either work itself out or become a Disaster which oddly enough is my Post cause I am writing these right behind each other and well listening to both songs on a 2 song playlist on repeat. So with that my first

TO BE CONTINUED…

I Need This (2012-08-24)

I need this, what the Hell do I need? Well first I need this song on repeat by Jessie J it is an amazing song I love every little thing about this song and the lyrics. This is part 2 of my 2 part thought process, the first was angry this is not so much it is a great and I love the meaning behind it.

“Stop! Where am I? Shock! I can’t cry, Pop! I need some space, No! This isn’t me Go! Please let me breath I’ll be back sooner then you know.”

“I Need This Space just like you need air; I need this time, time to clear out my mind. Wait did you hear that, hear my heartbeat I really need this”

“No its not personal sorry if I’m hurting you please don’t give up on me now. I needed this time alone to know I could come back home to breath.”

I love the song in its entirety it is amazing and it so resonates in me in so many different ways. Well first I think one of the main issues in personal relationships both friendly and romantic neither party really walks in the others shoes nor do they completely grasp the person they love is acting a certain way or being out of what they are used to. I have this quote and it talks about loving to see his tailor because he is the only person that doesn’t try to fit him in a previous version of himself and refits him every time they see each other. That quote makes me smile because in recent months I have fell to those judgments; time has passed I haven’t seen people in a while and it feels like the time that passed has really passed. And others that it’s been 2 years or the few its been more then 5 or just random moments it feels like time stopped and we pick up where the last joke was told or the last memory we had together and fill in the gaps.  But I guess growing up means growing apart or growing closer whether it be friend or lover I love this song and the title because I needed the time I took away from Vegas, just like I needed the time away from Dancing this Summer just like I need this new path I am on. I feel like in the song she realizes for this relationship to work she needs time and space to figure through the highs and lows in what she is embarking on. You have to be open to know that people change, grow, evolve not all at the same pace and not all in the same way but that is where the old saying I use “Life is Sum of Choice you Make” comes into play. It’s up to you to choose if you wanna stick it out and be there while someone that’s hurt you or you haven’t seen a lot of or just someone that you have grown apart from deals with the same things you are but in their way. With the hurt do you need this time to figure out is it worth it or is my resentment going to be here forever.  With the one you haven’t seen a lot of do you take the road of let’s do lunch and catch up on our life’s since we last were around each other. And with the Distance and growing apart to you try to mend that bridge with active trying daily to find the source of the Chasm or do you let it go and chalk it up to Life moving rapidly forward?

The Second is the awakening when you realize WOW life is happening, in the beginning of the song she is so ready to get that time to figure her out and find what she thinks she is missing and along the way hoping he sticks around to see the woman she’s becoming. I know that both are hard roles to be in but what do you do when on her hand you feel as if no matter what happens he may leave because I put this man through hell for a while and now he’s done. I wanna be better version of me not just for me or him but us and everything I do isn’t good enough? Or on his end given so much of him to this cause this love that is so Amazing in his eyes because he sees forever in her eyes and then to be put in this place where she needs space now and she is pushing you away so you think, so you close off and get angry. Like I said I have been in both positions and it sucks for both but who knows if either will work or will be what both you and the other person need to be that Happily Ever After?

I guess the goal for me is Happiness and in that comes with friends that build you up not just suck the life out of you and out of a room. Real friends that you know if you invited your entire friend base over there would be no drama because all of them would be an extension of you therefore they would all pretty much feel as if they know each other. A woman who loves me flaws and all and we have been through life together I have seen her fall and crawl and fight and climb and grow, believe, change, evolve, love more than she ever has and build something more than just bad memories together, a woman who I see forever in her eyes and I daily fall back in love with her because of her smile. A family that gets me and is supportive but that has always been the case I have been blessed and, in that the ones that is more than just best friends or friends the family outside my family that Ride to Hell with me and pull me back when I get to comfortable there. I am seeing those aspects more and more as I get older and life happens to me and it makes me so happy and freaks me out LOL.

I will finish with I NEED THIS moment in my life and I love this moment in my life. I wanna thank EVERYONE I mean the Lighthouse in my life who has dealt with the best and worst versions of me and still wanna see it through till the end, the friends that have come and stayed and I couldn’t forget if I wanted to cause they are lifers, the family that is Irreplaceable for all the best reasons. Then to the ones that ran away the ones that left a bad taste in my mouth, the users, and abuser, the Misery Loves Company Members thank you the most without all of them and some of you reading this I would not have been able to see and now have this Amazing Army in my corner not just my One & Only but A Force of Nature an AMAZING  Group of people that I can call at a moment’s notice to defend the ground in which cannot be shaken by Negativity or Jealousy or Spite.

Look to the Skies because my Light doesn’t stay Dim Long, gravity and me were never friends!!!

Live, Love, Laugh, Dance,

-I See You…-

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

Ty 2012

Wide Awake (2012 -08-22)

I thought about 2 different blogs so that’s what I will do this month because of recent events I think it is cause for 2 different ones. This one is the not so nice one, so if by the end you feel like I was talking about you or that it was a personal attack STOP TALKING TO ME, LET ME GO, LEAVE ME ALONE AND KEEP YOUR MISERY TO YOURSELF. The old saying is so true Misery Loves Company for so many damn reasons “side note this has nothing to do with my personal relationship but mostly the so called friends I have made & well enemies”. In recent weeks, months, years I have started to see the dark caves in human race and glanced at them in different lights and it has been to say the least scary, enlightening, and fulfilling. Everyone has a twinge of Jealousy in them as well as a hint of Revenge or a lot of both depending on the individual and how they deal with their personal demons. And in that respect blossomed this concept behind the post your reading, we all love this song from Katy Perry and the lyrics are amazing no need to get into them if you don’t know the song or the lyrics look them up you will love them.

            I have learned to take people with a grain of salt and to that extent either they grow or they hang themselves weather its 5 weeks, months, or years in the end no one can keep their true colors hidden for too long. Like most secrets they come to the light at some point and at that same point people can only hind their true face for so long before Medusa comes out. I’m an open book and I have said that for quite a long time and nothing has changed if you wanna know something just ask and if you’re too chicken shit to ask read my blogs they have all of me to read. Here is the thing I don’t name names or give specific situations cause I care about other people’s privacy mine on the other hand is non-existent. If we are no longer friends or as a co-worker you just made me sick, the relationship ended or “I” have moved on you should too it’s not that hard stop following my Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, stop requesting my friends to get at me somehow LET IT GO you have fallen from cloud 9. I no longer care who you are what you do and how you are, you life becomes a distant memory so I advise the following DO THE SAME. Life is too short to hold grudges or HATE cause your grass is dying mine isn’t greener I just switched to turf or gravel so stop trying to keep up and be messy cause karma as we all know is an Evil Bitch “That’s B I C T H in that order” LOL sorry  had to. I guess more than mad I am just disappointed in Homo-Sapiens in general; don’t cheat on your boyfriend of 3 years and then get mad at me cause things are weird, don’t sleep around on your husband and expect me understand, please don’t think months, years after we break up that I am stunting you and please know that just cause your blood I Give cause family the first ones to screw you or not support you. Co-workers, friends, exes, and family kill me when they start ruining there life I am the escape goat NO Ma’am.

I love learning lessons and I love the growth that comes after the lesson has changed me. You learn by Listening and Living and in that order I don’t know everything and I still fall down quite a bit but like the awesome new Batman movies “why do we fall Mr. Wayne?” Its true so here is my quick rant and then I hope I don’t have to show my Ass cause very rarely do I go Dark and Alley Cat Crazy but when you try to compromise my real friends or intentionally hurt me or my feeling it’s a necessary evil and let the Record show there is someone in this world crazier then you and I probably know them . . “Yeah, I was in the dark I was falling hard with an open heart. I'm wide awake, how did I read the stars so wrong.” That line in the song is my Kryptonite I just assume people have good intentions and when you grow apart or life happens I just think okay LIFE goes on. Not true for some and to those some I welcome your anger, hate, resentment, hurt feeling but I just ask that you address me my email address is danzetim@gmail.com feel free to contact me set up a call or just send hate mail it makes my life that much more enjoyable.  Life is too damn short to be bitter or hold that kind of anger in you LET GO and live people die every damn min stop wasting your time on little old me if you LOVE me then LOVE me, if not MOVE ON. I wish you Ocean breezes and everything you need to be Happy in this Life cause if I catch you in the next run for cover J J J

In closing please for the sake of you living a little longer cause you’re not stroking out at life I have my happiness and change and growth, grow up, move on and LIVE YOUR LIFE you only get 1 don’t waste it on Jealousy, Envy, Resentment, Anger, and Child's Play we grown so get you grown homo-sapiens pants out and LIVE…

-I See You…-

*Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

Live, Love, Laugh

Ty 2012

Hurts the Most (2012-07-14)

Hurts The Most

                I know what most people are saying I love that Rascal Flatts song or who the hell is Rascal Flatts? And it would be the mixer of both cause I personally love Rascal Flatts song but it’s not that, it’s a song I heard years ago when I was graduating High School and moving to Orlando. But then it got on my download list that I lost 3 laptops ago because she did her thang at the B.E.T. awards with Brandy and it was Monica in which made me re-listen songs I loved back then and this “After Storm” album track was one of them. I didn’t feel the song this way almost ten yrears ago I thought this would be cool to do a lyrical hipish dance or combo to then, Wow now I am thinking did I just go through this. In fact you look and go did my BFF go through this last year or”is she still fighting that battle?”, or “am I really going through this again?”, “was it worth it?”, “Is this me right now?”

                It for me was all those at once plus some but, Download the song or I will share a link to one of the youtube+lyrics videos at the end. that is what was scary cause I understand and was in it full force. It sounds to me in the song Monica screwed up, waited to long to commit, made a grown lady boo boo, and was getting to finally tell him. I don’t know if Monica felt this way when she was performing or helped with making it. But I was there I was that guy she left or I was that friend that I just heard this situation or remember your god sisters tell you what not to miss out on. I know most my blogs are kind of emotional but it is like my brother and some friends said when I just took some time from dance to visit the family for more then 4 days (I know Seriously) they called a Hopeless Romantic I remember my big brother joking about it with some of our friends at the house during a BBQ. You know I love a good BBQ, either I am cooking and everyone brings drinks and desert or its my MOM doing the same.

 I know I am a hopeless romantic everyone who truly knows me will go oh hell without question he is. I felt bad for the lyrics of the situation in this song. A part of me went damn she had a good one and let it slip because of some insecurities or taking too much time to realize he was it. While the other part was saying “I’m walking away and like Lisa’s character in *Single Ladies* said at the end of Episode 6 of Season 2 “If we never speak again in life, it will be too soon for me” DAMN. Real talk I need some words this time, cause usually I will talk about choices you make and things you can do to maybe learn grow or put some meaning to it. but I know I am interested in some outside thoughts and hey when all these get published I would Love to put some responses in it so go follow me on twitter and F.B @tydanze  look me up on intagram @tylamar follow my blog tylamar.blogspot.com tell a friend I wanna know where the world is now…
Here is the link to Monica's song w/ Lyrics http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zpTmvIGXMOY

I Hope to hear from everyone soon and my next will be coming down the pipe soon.

Live, Love & Dance (A little),

Ty 2012

– I See You…-

 *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make*

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Give your Heart A Break (2012-06-18)

Give your Heart a Break

Demi Lovato newest single it upsets me for many reasons but I will get into that soon enough. First let me say I do love this song too much and I must think my girl Amanda for putting me on it. 

“Don't wanna break your heart, Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong Like you might make a mistake.
There's just one life to live, And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break.”

 

This had me dancing like just wanted to break out some chorey. Listen to it and realize you can relate; either you are her feeling like you just want this person to relax and love or the other hand the one that is so over heartaches you can’t see what’s right in front of you. I think for me I purposing jump in that first role I don’t wanna break your heart I just wanna give your heart a break, that’s amazing I just want your heart to go on vacation with me. Less drama, some smiles, warmth, protection, love comfort those are some of the things I want your heart to do when it take a break. But in this process do you get so far from you in trying to give someones heart a break that you end up breaking yours? How do you know when you need to give your heart a break and not worry about someone elses? It is and can be exhausting proving over and over that you aren’t the norm. It must be harder for my ladies because if you meet a man fucked by life I am so sorry in advance because it like taking down the wall of China with a toothpick. I find it easier for us because someone can only fake being a nice guy for so long and then his true colors come out so ladies wait it out if he wrong for you he will get on some BS. Here is some more of the track the feed this second helping in 1 day WOW. 

“The day I first met you, you told me you'd never fall in love. But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was. Now there we are So close yet so far. Haven't I passed the test When will you realize Baby, I'm not like the rest.”

It is like the best part is that last line When will you realize baby I am not like the rest.  How long has that battle been going on with relationships I am not him or she isn’t me. I love to hate that concept but it is one I struggle with so I understand the drive to wanna prove them wrong that not all of us cheat or hit or manipulate or aint worth a pot to piss in. But I also see the drain factor in building someone up you could be tearing you down. And in closing these lyrics and this thought…

“Cause you've been hurt before I can see it in your eyes You try to smile it away, some things you can't disguise
Don't wanna break your heart Maybe, I can ease the ache, the acheSo let me give your heart a break. There's just so much you can take, Give your heart a break.”

I Love it I will finish with this concept you have been hurt before we all have I am here trying to make it work. You try to smile away things you can’t disguise, pretend things are ok when ya’ll should all know if someone knows you and loves you they know when shit ain’t right. Maybe I ease the ache, Let me make it a little bit easier for you to live in this world and hopefully with. There is just so much you can take, I think that is a two way street. One can only take being not loved or underappreciated for so long. And one can only feel less about themselves until they take out themselves if not both parties out. So I guess play the song and take what you will but hear the desire to be more then we are in relationships nowadays. Settling or not uplifting and realize one persons trash is another person’s treasure before its too late…

-I See You…- *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* J Ty 2012

Payphone (2012-0-18)

Payphone  

Come on if this song isn’t on your playlist you missing out. Maroon 5 newest summers 2012 single feat Wiz Khalifa. Great break up song or for that matter a song on enlighten thinking for the less jaded people of this world LOL. Here is some words for thought.

“I'm at a payphone trying to call home. All of my change i've spent on you
Where are the times gone babyIt's all wrong, we're at  the place we made for two.

If happy ever after did existI would still be holding you like this
And all those fairytales are full of Shit. One more Fuckin love song i'll be sick. “

Genius it hit him like a ton of bricks “All my change I spent on you.” Dumbass he probably called himself, they made plans and now he the fool. I love the line about fairy tales so funny and yet so true. If fairy tales exist you wouldn’t be across the country or the world or engaged or so damn crazy. But I just realized fairy tales are full of shit. They might both cheat one or both are going to get good at lying and manipulating the other. For lack of better words Shits going to get Real. How do you deal with that feeling that times up, too many wrongs, or just not enough right, Maybe its just to night and day concept or the You see the world in a Million Colors they only see black & white. Either way that must be some hard pills to swallow. I guess it comes down to he is done no redemption he tried which is rare.

“You turned your back on tomorrow Cause you forgot yesterday I gave you my love to borrow But just gave it away. You can't expect me to be a friend I don't expect you to care I know I said it before
But all of our bridges burnt down.
I've wasted my nights You turned out the lights Now i'm paralyzed. Still stucked in that time when we called it love But even the sun sets in paradise.”

Come the hell on if no one feels this come take a nap. He is emotional and hitting all the nails on the coffin. He tried everything and it still wasn’t enough, I know so many of us who do that exact thing. Hold on to relationships till there is seriously nothing but hate and pain before you let go and realize you wasted so much change on it. The best part of this is for me that last line “Even the Sun sets on Paradise”, it is so true and no one believes in bumps anymore. I guess it is something we all should have; notice I said should, because we all don’t have that and in that respect its kind of sad. We cant be friends we wont be friends you hurt me and that wont change I feel like I wasted so much of my life being what you wanted and that wont go away. So Deuces…

I guess this song struck a cord because and some point I have hit that bottom of anger and that upside to anger. Which if you know me and been around me I love that line in the tub. I feel this song and where it takes you and what you feel after it, it keeps me thinking the decisions I make has to be better. No one wants to feel less because someone didn’t delivery there end of the agreement to love, care, cherish, support, uplift, encourage. Without a ring those things are still in a committed relationship between 2 adults. It should just be without conversation or questioning those things that should be daily. I hate Valentine’s Day but I also love it, don’t tell me when to love her I show her daily I don’t need one day. And on the other hand I want someone to wanna do something special for me because I make them happy. I see the payphone concept on such a wide scale I am at a payphone (Some random part in your life) trying to find my way home, realizing I spent so much of me on you. Obama made a great quote and I so love it “Be the Change you Want to See in the World”… So True Live, Love & Dance

-I See You…-   *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* <3 Ty 2012