Love Me like you Do (2015 -09-02)

                 So I am clearing going to see Fifty Shades of Grey this weekend but I never thought I would love a soundtrack so damn much. It is very sensual and yet empowering and beautiful and most of all SEXY. And then there was this damn song and talk about a little mini tiny sobfest and that was before I saw the damn music video OH LORD my FEELS were in overdrive hahahahaha.

So the super talented Ellie Goulding sings this beautiful piece of music.  And no lie I am Alive in this song. So I will leave a link at the bottom of this post to the official video and lyrics.

                I mean WOW all my feels right now it is a beautiful song about love and new love and the FALLING part of it all. She says at one point “I let you set the pace because I’m not thinking straight.” It is almost as if she is at the cliff of LOVE and ready to Dive but like she says “What are you waiting for?” Don’t get me wrong I loved the other songs on that soundtrack but this one like stung me. I guess let me explain… (Down the Rabbit Hole)

                I guess you can say the universe is waking me up slowly but surely and what I am seeing and feeling is changing dramatically. I chalk it up to Enlightenment and no I don’t mean I had a moment with Buddha I am referring to a shift in consciousness that is still happening but to see it happen and feel it happen is not only Beautiful but Exciting and a little daunting because as I grow and feel my inner me surface I see so much of my outer world crack and I love it. To see things fall off or fall apart isn’t as terrible as it sounds.  To love and be loved is the whole point of being here, to share our energy with others to pass on LOVE. As I let go of old beliefs and century old notions I see LOVE and people keep asking who is it and to be completely honest I found a muse. That sounds so silly the thought of a muse but as I write it I mean it. When there is a spirit that brightens your day with random text, or just the thought of chilling with them is lightening it becomes refreshing in a world full of motives and back handed people its good to rely on someone who doesn’t know you rely on them that this emoji J is enough on a Tuesday to see the good in the world.

To see someone you have never really seen or have seen this entire time but through different eyes is crazy. In the video for the song its clips of the movie and of this couple dancing and not only are so intense with it, but the emotion in it is so perfect. I guess I truly am in my FEELS I don’t mind it at all cause I am making choices and I don’t mean little I mean CHOICES. I cant believe 10 years ago this month I boarded my first cruise ship and the choices I have made since then has been a beautiful story that I can’t wait to continue.

I opened both eyes when I saw my sister in law pregnant with my nephew and holding my Aunts son I knew I loved my Tribe and my Tribe loved ALL of me. And not just my Blood tribe but to see the love in my all these amazing beautiful people I have met over the last 29 years have been a dream come true. I have always been a dreamer and sometimes that hasn’t ended well but overall I wouldn’t trade the last 29 years of life love and the pursuit of happiness.

                As I finish this pre Valentine Day post I will send this wish to the Universe, I wish all you Beautiful Spirits the Courage to Love again, the Strength to Move Forward, and the Heart to Show LOVE today!!!! With that I will take my own advice and show some love today.

“The Best use of Life is LOVE. The Best Expression of Love is Time. The Best Time to Love is NOW…”

Offical Video

LYRICS

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐

Know Thyself⭐

Ty Johnson 2015

Almost (2015-17-01)

WOW 2015 REALLY???

It is the year I turn 30 and I could not be more excited, and I cannot believe I have never blogged about this song I am low key mad at myself and yet it comes at a PERFECTLY IMPERFECT time. The amazing artist Tamia released this song as a single in Nov of 2007 and I remember being on ships thinking this track is everything.  But as they say everything happens for a reason and in its own season. So I don’t know what came over me this year but I feel so renewed and so focused on my own happiness and just driving to my destiny full speed ahead.  I heard this song so long ago but it wasn’t until NOW that this song means so much.

Let me give an abundance of thanks to 2014 for finally being in the past (Standing Ovation). But since 2012 I have felt the weight of the Universe stirring inside me and I felt as if my life was in a cyclone of chaos and growth that I set into motion and was not in control of because  I made a choice that at the time didn’t sit well and now still doesn’t. But in some ways needed the disarray & Choas to put ME back together not just back together but a wiser more focused ME. So that I didn’t have nothing in my life to be questioned or second guessed upon going into a new book of my life.  So let me hit you with why this song touched me so much recently.

*Can you tell me how can one miss what she’s never had, how could I reminisce when there is no past?
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy, could someone tell me how could this be?
How can my mind pull up incidents, recall dates and times that never happened?
How we could celebrate a love that too late and, how could I really mean the words Im about to say?
Chorus
**I missed the times that we almost shared; I miss the love that was almost there.
I miss the times that we used to kiss at least in my dreams just let me take my time and reminisce.
I miss the times that we never had, what happened to us we were almost there.
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had; Never almost had YOU.

You know I can pinpoint when I knew, was it the smile the personality or maybe the effortless grace, ANY and all of those applied. But it was right around thanksgiving and I was around so many people who knew me (My Tribe) and I mean truly knew me, it was more than reenergizing it showed me my path and what my Destiny could be if I so wanted. I only laugh now because I was not in the best place when I met a spirit unlike any I had previously encountered in all my travels. In my journals I use the term Goddess when I refer to a woman that added to my life and made a Lasting impression. In saying that I looked back at the journal I had when I met her and I wrote “I Met Hera“ which for everyone who does not know is the Supreme Goddess and Queen of Olympia.
It was easy and fun and light and non-threatening but completely real. And I let it slip because at the time I had a broken outlook on loyalty to people that didn’t deserve my love or loyalty.  How crazy of me how delusional how sad?

But I believe everything happens for a reason and at the time it wasn’t meant to be because life needed to happen lessons needed to be learned and love needed to be lost so it could be found. So I am going to write the best part of the song give my last 2 cents and let it all soak in.

*And you seem to be the perfect one for me; you’re all I ever wanted.
And you’re my Everything yes its True but its hard to be close to you.
And I know it may sound crazy but I’m in LOVE with YOU.

You can never put a time on when you love someone but when you have to let someone go and not know if the time will ever be right again that is the pits. But like all great Romance novels I got to bring the WHY to the table. The WHY NOW, WHY HER? Because everyone wants to be loved but not everyone is ready to be loved either by someone they didn’t expect or by timing that wasn’t their own. I can’t possibly tell so many people to live their dreams follow they destiny and take life by the horns if I am not following my own advice. So if I am distant and I seem out of it it’s because I am planning to make a GRAND gesture to build a bridge to a true blue GODDESS…

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐Know Thyself⭐

Ty
2015

Lost Star (2014-29-10)

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It's Almost Halloween which is one of my favorite holidays. Anyways I love watching B rated movies that aren't well known. So I watched "Begin Again" with Adam Lavine, Kiera Knightley and Mark Ruffalo well in it Adam does this song he wrote for Kiera and he played it live and I got emotional because I heard the lyrics as soon as he sung them. I will give just one set of the awesomeness then i will spill my spirit. 

* Tell us the reason youth is wasted on the young. It's hunting season and this lamb is on the run. We're searching for meaning...

But are we all lost stars trying to light up the dark?*

I LOVE the last part "are we all lost stars trying to light up the Dark?" POWERFUL to me at least because that is so tragic and so Beautiful. Why does Earth have 1 moon not 2, why are we just far enough away from our sun, why do our planets orbit this star? All valid questions and we can apply them is all walks of our life.

Why did we date her/him, why this job, why another heartbreak, why now in my Life? I Have been cleaning my spirit so much this year and I finding so much out and in that so much sadness and facades in too many humans and it is shocking. We all may very well be lost stars but when meators  collide so much happens on not just a surface level but on an atomic, cellular level. 

Like me and the good book always agree on "Everything happens the way it should". What if we are all lost stars that's amazing because your Destiny(Whatever that is) is your lost star.  *PerfectlyImperfect & UniquelyPerfect* see people that way and the lost stars will form a galaxy, constellation, UNIVERSE of Destined People who are accepting of all. It's not a dream it is just not here yet.

I believe LOVE is the "Hand that rocks the Craddle" No pun intended, I love that movie but I meant it moves mountains and change destinies and  if we are lost allow yourself to be found. See the Beauty in the day, take a chance with something or someone new, buy that shirt go see that movie. The problem is  as a species are afraid of HAPPY we not used to it so we fear what we don't understand (Name that Movie?).

Ok I will end with don't let something you thought you lost derail your path or your Star truly becomes lost in space. Weather it's love, confidence, strength to leave, courage to move on, faith it will come, or hope for a better tomorrow. Trust that *Life is the Sum of Choices you Make* and once you OWN you those choices will be celebrations of growth, lessons and Smiles.....

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐

Know Thyself⭐

Ty

2014