Fragile, I am Not... (2015-06-04)

Fragile, I am not…

I guess I have been holding this in for quite some time because I was wondered in which it would be perceived then a Brother of mine Rodney said it clear on Easter yesterday. “How do people think you survived all these years in all these different countries by being sweet and asking permission?” I think it was so opening to first bring in 2015 letting go of so much both old and new baggage and since the new experience so many new things and so many refreshing moments like the title of this entry. 

I believe the all started when I was leaving Phoenix and going to Al to see my Nephew and by proxy family and friends. In this trip so much I saw and felt and realized the biggest being that too many people have me in this bowl or bubble and it no longer not ok but now just out and out RUDE. Not only am I not the man I was in 2012 but I am also not the young man I was at 25 or the teen I was in Detroit hell I am not the man I was in December so for the sake of making the world a better place can we as humans stop looking at people through old lenses? I think I chose I’m not fragile because I looked at my world as a whole and saw too many looked at me as this boy this weak fragile entity that need to be watched and coddled. 

It wasn’t so much upsetting as it is sad, and I get it hell I am a loose cannon that moves around ALOT and hasn’t really settled in no area. But does that make me a flight risk or this baby bird that needs consent supervision? NO HELL NO HELL TO THE NO…

I think it hit me seeing my nephew and now in Florida with my Cousin/Nephew I see love and life at such a fragile way that I see being loving and showing love is not only essential to future life and love and peace on the planet but it is more necessary. I saw a world that wasn’t just not OK but completely OUT OF POCKET and not just in Alabama but in my life I saw too much people was getting away with and like I Albert Einstein said. “The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil but by those who watch them without doing Anything.” No truer statement fits, I can no longer sit by and let the world assume about anything. Live is too short and if I go tomorrow I want the world to know life is not only good but great. Yes, I’m in debt, yes I’m singe, yes I am a free spirit, yes I love love, yes I believe is FULL EQUALITY and yes I think my country is screwed in the head and we allow too much from within. 

In all i just wasn’t to make some facts clear, i am about to be 30 in Sept and i don’t listen to NO ONE, NO ONE i respect what respects me and over the years this moment has come several times and i purge but this time feels different because this thine around it's a lot of VIP members getting their cards cut in half and the Funeral is being planned no date is set but time to set it is quickly running out. I truly don’t have time for the fuckery the flagrant actions the disrespectful comments the belittling because you either create or allow and guess who good? ME I am blessed and I see my newest generation growing and I wanna give THEM the best chance at life. Because if you not adding to my Highly favored Life NO MATTER WHAT TITLE YOU HOLD you can be not cut off be Excommunicated from the League Xciled from the Tribe and on the Funeral list with a lost of sleep. 

Moral of the post I am not fragile and this is not my first time living so where or anywhere and at 30 people I have managed to make it around the world 3 times over and live in over 35 countries before 30 so believe me I’m OK and I have made it this far with or without you and MY future you may not be involved in. Life is too short and our world is ever changing if we as humans don’t start being the change we bitch about then step all the way to the side and allow a royal class to give this world a better tomorrow. I surround myself with Kings and Queens who want a better tomorrow if you are not part of the vision the I truly have no time for it. So before our next encounter remember I have a story like yours but different and I don’t wanna walk a mile in your shoes and you don’t know what its like to walk in mine. Fragile, I am Not… Of Royalty my Spirits comes from, I am of Strength of Loyalty, of Hope and most of all  I am of LOVE. 

Next time someone is quick to look at you like you don’t know what its like to Survive you remind them that its 2015 and your still here…  But AmI DEAD????

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐

Know Thyself⭐

Ty Johnson 2015

Love Me like you Do (2015 -09-02)

                 So I am clearing going to see Fifty Shades of Grey this weekend but I never thought I would love a soundtrack so damn much. It is very sensual and yet empowering and beautiful and most of all SEXY. And then there was this damn song and talk about a little mini tiny sobfest and that was before I saw the damn music video OH LORD my FEELS were in overdrive hahahahaha.

So the super talented Ellie Goulding sings this beautiful piece of music.  And no lie I am Alive in this song. So I will leave a link at the bottom of this post to the official video and lyrics.

                I mean WOW all my feels right now it is a beautiful song about love and new love and the FALLING part of it all. She says at one point “I let you set the pace because I’m not thinking straight.” It is almost as if she is at the cliff of LOVE and ready to Dive but like she says “What are you waiting for?” Don’t get me wrong I loved the other songs on that soundtrack but this one like stung me. I guess let me explain… (Down the Rabbit Hole)

                I guess you can say the universe is waking me up slowly but surely and what I am seeing and feeling is changing dramatically. I chalk it up to Enlightenment and no I don’t mean I had a moment with Buddha I am referring to a shift in consciousness that is still happening but to see it happen and feel it happen is not only Beautiful but Exciting and a little daunting because as I grow and feel my inner me surface I see so much of my outer world crack and I love it. To see things fall off or fall apart isn’t as terrible as it sounds.  To love and be loved is the whole point of being here, to share our energy with others to pass on LOVE. As I let go of old beliefs and century old notions I see LOVE and people keep asking who is it and to be completely honest I found a muse. That sounds so silly the thought of a muse but as I write it I mean it. When there is a spirit that brightens your day with random text, or just the thought of chilling with them is lightening it becomes refreshing in a world full of motives and back handed people its good to rely on someone who doesn’t know you rely on them that this emoji J is enough on a Tuesday to see the good in the world.

To see someone you have never really seen or have seen this entire time but through different eyes is crazy. In the video for the song its clips of the movie and of this couple dancing and not only are so intense with it, but the emotion in it is so perfect. I guess I truly am in my FEELS I don’t mind it at all cause I am making choices and I don’t mean little I mean CHOICES. I cant believe 10 years ago this month I boarded my first cruise ship and the choices I have made since then has been a beautiful story that I can’t wait to continue.

I opened both eyes when I saw my sister in law pregnant with my nephew and holding my Aunts son I knew I loved my Tribe and my Tribe loved ALL of me. And not just my Blood tribe but to see the love in my all these amazing beautiful people I have met over the last 29 years have been a dream come true. I have always been a dreamer and sometimes that hasn’t ended well but overall I wouldn’t trade the last 29 years of life love and the pursuit of happiness.

                As I finish this pre Valentine Day post I will send this wish to the Universe, I wish all you Beautiful Spirits the Courage to Love again, the Strength to Move Forward, and the Heart to Show LOVE today!!!! With that I will take my own advice and show some love today.

“The Best use of Life is LOVE. The Best Expression of Love is Time. The Best Time to Love is NOW…”

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Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐

Know Thyself⭐

Ty Johnson 2015

Almost (2015-17-01)

WOW 2015 REALLY???

It is the year I turn 30 and I could not be more excited, and I cannot believe I have never blogged about this song I am low key mad at myself and yet it comes at a PERFECTLY IMPERFECT time. The amazing artist Tamia released this song as a single in Nov of 2007 and I remember being on ships thinking this track is everything.  But as they say everything happens for a reason and in its own season. So I don’t know what came over me this year but I feel so renewed and so focused on my own happiness and just driving to my destiny full speed ahead.  I heard this song so long ago but it wasn’t until NOW that this song means so much.

Let me give an abundance of thanks to 2014 for finally being in the past (Standing Ovation). But since 2012 I have felt the weight of the Universe stirring inside me and I felt as if my life was in a cyclone of chaos and growth that I set into motion and was not in control of because  I made a choice that at the time didn’t sit well and now still doesn’t. But in some ways needed the disarray & Choas to put ME back together not just back together but a wiser more focused ME. So that I didn’t have nothing in my life to be questioned or second guessed upon going into a new book of my life.  So let me hit you with why this song touched me so much recently.

*Can you tell me how can one miss what she’s never had, how could I reminisce when there is no past?
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy, could someone tell me how could this be?
How can my mind pull up incidents, recall dates and times that never happened?
How we could celebrate a love that too late and, how could I really mean the words Im about to say?
Chorus
**I missed the times that we almost shared; I miss the love that was almost there.
I miss the times that we used to kiss at least in my dreams just let me take my time and reminisce.
I miss the times that we never had, what happened to us we were almost there.
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had; Never almost had YOU.

You know I can pinpoint when I knew, was it the smile the personality or maybe the effortless grace, ANY and all of those applied. But it was right around thanksgiving and I was around so many people who knew me (My Tribe) and I mean truly knew me, it was more than reenergizing it showed me my path and what my Destiny could be if I so wanted. I only laugh now because I was not in the best place when I met a spirit unlike any I had previously encountered in all my travels. In my journals I use the term Goddess when I refer to a woman that added to my life and made a Lasting impression. In saying that I looked back at the journal I had when I met her and I wrote “I Met Hera“ which for everyone who does not know is the Supreme Goddess and Queen of Olympia.
It was easy and fun and light and non-threatening but completely real. And I let it slip because at the time I had a broken outlook on loyalty to people that didn’t deserve my love or loyalty.  How crazy of me how delusional how sad?

But I believe everything happens for a reason and at the time it wasn’t meant to be because life needed to happen lessons needed to be learned and love needed to be lost so it could be found. So I am going to write the best part of the song give my last 2 cents and let it all soak in.

*And you seem to be the perfect one for me; you’re all I ever wanted.
And you’re my Everything yes its True but its hard to be close to you.
And I know it may sound crazy but I’m in LOVE with YOU.

You can never put a time on when you love someone but when you have to let someone go and not know if the time will ever be right again that is the pits. But like all great Romance novels I got to bring the WHY to the table. The WHY NOW, WHY HER? Because everyone wants to be loved but not everyone is ready to be loved either by someone they didn’t expect or by timing that wasn’t their own. I can’t possibly tell so many people to live their dreams follow they destiny and take life by the horns if I am not following my own advice. So if I am distant and I seem out of it it’s because I am planning to make a GRAND gesture to build a bridge to a true blue GODDESS…

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐Know Thyself⭐

Ty
2015

Papercut (2014-10-10)

    Ernest Hemingway would say "don't force it, write when you have something to say". Well it took me longer then normal but I heard this song Papercut by the Amazing Jordin Sparks on my special mix on Pandora and I shazamed it (yes I love that app) and shifted my mind a bit more.

"Cuz I was fine till you broke through. But don't worry baby, I'll get over you by tomorrow or the next day, or the next day, or the next day...
I'm ok, I'll be fine I only think about you half the time. I'm ok, I'll survive I only think about you half of the time. All those tears were just drops in the ocean baby, You never even cross my mind No No Boy you wish it hurt that much it was only a PAPERCUT."

I have been privy to some amazing, terrible, beautiful, sad, Oh My God moments the last couple of years but 2014 I awoke to a world I didn't recognize anymore. See I started dancing in 1989 when Janet Jackson released ⭐Rhythm Nation 1814⭐ and back then like RIGHT NOW a lot needed to be said about everything and very few people were saying it somewhat like today. The only difference is now we are old enough to speak out on injustice and the wrongs of the world we live in. I see a hateful, sad, lost world and in the same breath I see some real honest to goodness Peace, Love and Hope.

I say this song got to me because as I heard the song I thought this is beautiful.I loved the growth and heartache I can hear in it and her beautiful voice was what the amazing lyrics needed as a vessel. It got me to wondering how often do we dwell on a bad moment and let it boil over into our life? Too Damn often. I heard this song and I went WOW "I'll get over it tomorrow or the next day..." and I was like this all too true no matter what has happen it shall pass. It may not be today but when it does move forward because life has a way of giving us what we need when we need it, if you are aware.

I say to the lost, broken hearted, unhappy, confused, mad, jaded, happily settling, scared spirits of the world IT WAS ONLY A PAPERCUT. We were created PerfectlyImperfect & UniquelyPerfect and the trials and tribulations of this era takes a village not 7 Billion personal wars. I will say the LOVE I have seen makes me smile the openness for peace is here now we as people must cultivate that and help that grow and spread like wild fire. "Like tears in the ocean" is how I started to take inventory of my life to see that although I have been through so much in 29 years and the crazy CRAY CRAY moments where/are tears in the ocean.

To end this so I may drift to sleep, PAPERCUTS hurt like Hell at first and u truly act like a limb was almost chopped off. But in 3 days it is a distant memory "what Papercut?". Why can't we do better and stop taking life so serious, holding on to things that are already healed, blaming life for you not seeing your signs. All we need is around us and it doesn't cost nothing LOVE. #LoveCan do ANYTHING...
So like someone said;

 The best use of life is love. 

The best expression of love is time. 

The best time to love is now!

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐

Know Thyself⭐

Ty

2014