Showing posts with label joy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label joy. Show all posts

8/25/2015

Fight Song (2015-25-08)

Fight Song is a great track its fresh so it’s no shock that I absolutely had to use this song as my return from Hiatus sung by beautiful & talented Rachel Platten.  I needed some WE time with Me, Myself, & my “I AM SELF” because I was falling from a cliff I didn’t realize I was off of, And by that time I noticed I was already half way down . So I started to fly and in so many different aspects of my life started to grow at such a speed that it felt like going from crawling to soaring in the clouds.

This song picked me when it came on Spotify I literally felt so much all at once. At the time I had no idea why I was so in my feels but regardless I played it quite a bit since I heard it initially. I guess for me the hardest/easiest part of the latter of my 20’s is truly LETTING GO. Not just of anything not serving me but anybody that isn’t actively adding to my life in a positive way, and to say it was so simple would be a horrible lie. So I’m going to just put the lyrics highlighted throughout because I want to touch on almost all of them and I hope my thoughts help or soothe someone’s journey like so many Beautiful People have done for mine.


Verse 1 “Like a small boat, on the ocean. Sending big waves into motion. Like how a single word Can make a heart open. I might only have one match, but I can make an explosion.”


As beings having a human experience we our but small boats in an ocean and weather we send big waves or little ripples that flow once it’s out there can’t be recalled. To awake to something so real as; a single word can make a heart open. Then to look at one’s life as a whole and realized TOO many people were just taking not physical but emotionally and spiritually that you start to run on Empty. Like when your tank has that 2nd day with light on E drained.  And for something hitting so STRONGLY as “I might only have 1 match but I can make an Explosion” it felt as if Worlds were colliding like if you don’t make an explosive growth spurt life would happen in the most absent of light and love way that would affect all walks of your Life. And that thought alone sent me on a journey I have been on for nearly 30 years that I started to openly see the last 5 years and truly understand the last 4 months.

 Break “And all those things I didn't say, Wrecking balls inside my brain I will scream them loud tonight Can you hear my voice this time?”

These lyrics sound like drums on a big heart even now typing this entry. It is not the thought of loneliness or alienation or for that matter fear. But being more misunderstood not in every way but definitely in some major ways that may have affected the past but that is just it YESTERDAY is history. And in looking forward and finally soaring on wings of faith and trust in SELF, you realize the wrecking balls inside your brain is pushing you to be more. And the reflection you start to see looks just like you just fully aware & blissfully happy with the mirror image.

Chorus “This is my FIGHT SONG, Take back my life song, Prove I'm alright song. My POWER’S turned on Starting right now I'll be strong, I'll play my fight song. And I don't really care if nobody else believes Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in ME.”

Nothing prepares you for an Awakening or a shift in consciousness that feels like an out of body journey yet so earthly. This LIFE has been the most Amazing journey anyone could ever imagine. We stay so focused on what’s not working that we miss all that is working and not only working for us but working with US to achieve harmony. “I still got a lot FIGHT left in me” not so much literal fight, more accurately put as a path of less resistance to the ebb and flow of this life that you chose before you were born.

Chorus 2”Losing friends and I'm chasing sleep everybody’s worried about me, in too deep Say I'm in too deep. And it's been two years I miss my home, but there's a fire burning in my bones. Still believe???? Yeah, I still believe...”

To realize something so profound and so PURE that you wondered why it had not come up in almost 30 years “NO ONE TRULY KNEW ME”. Not in a bad way be not in a good way either. To take account of one’s life and see your friend base has shifted, your blood relatives didn’t make up even 15% of your TRIBE and that most of the people that you encountered only starched the surface of who you TRULY are; was A LOT at once. But to commit to self-work is that easiest, most uncomfortable thing you may ever do but once you take that first step and BELIEVE in yourself and that your FIGHT is worth it that’s better than a thousand heads bowing in prayer.

To focus on love and positively is not as hard as most would have you believe, that is the FIGHT that we allow others to triumph over in our own ring. We start to lose us trying to be everyone else version of who they think or assume we are. We must realize that our anger is misplaced if it is toward them, we create our destiny and manifest our tomorrows today. We are not weak or unable to Ascend but otherwise so preoccupied with our peoples views of/ on us weather its sub or surface consciousness that we start to slowly Diminish into needy, greedy, prideful, sad, resentful, angry beings which is not at all our call to this life.

“And I don't really care if nobody else believes Cause I've still got a lot of fight left in ME. Yes I Still got a lot Of Fight Left In ME!!!”

Life is truly the Sum of Choices you Make and thought is reality, so empower yourself on ALL levels before you look to anyone or anything for satisfaction. The things that bind us to this world are some of the same things that is keeps us from truly LIVING a FULL LIFE without second thoughts or memories that never happen. To tell Everyone that Life can and will be Epic when you accept that your cup is over beginning to get full and even once your cup has overflowed know that there is a fountain of cups under that 1 waiting to be filled with LOVE & PEACE. My hope is that this entry resonates with All of you in a Beautiful way. I wish the moon and stars to align so that WE  as people can begin to heal each other on such a level that see we are no longer Me but We’s and We are INFINTIE!!!!!

Your Fight is your most Perfect day getting better each round or an uphill battle for your survival but it is all in your perception of your life. This world is sad, depressed, mean, cruel, relentless, and unforgiving OR is it Beautiful filled with love and peace amazing sights gorgeous creatures, with oceans of possibilities and so many minds waiting to be connected to like minds in the pursuit of Joy, Happiness, Peace and Equality. It is truly on in how you look at it…

I wish Love in your Life, Patience in your Heart, and the Faith in your Spirit!!!

Tim 2015

4/06/2015

Fragile, I am Not... (2015-06-04)

Fragile, I am not…

I guess I have been holding this in for quite some time because I was wondered in which it would be perceived then a Brother of mine Rodney said it clear on Easter yesterday. “How do people think you survived all these years in all these different countries by being sweet and asking permission?” I think it was so opening to first bring in 2015 letting go of so much both old and new baggage and since the new experience so many new things and so many refreshing moments like the title of this entry. 

I believe the all started when I was leaving Phoenix and going to Al to see my Nephew and by proxy family and friends. In this trip so much I saw and felt and realized the biggest being that too many people have me in this bowl or bubble and it no longer not ok but now just out and out RUDE. Not only am I not the man I was in 2012 but I am also not the young man I was at 25 or the teen I was in Detroit hell I am not the man I was in December so for the sake of making the world a better place can we as humans stop looking at people through old lenses? I think I chose I’m not fragile because I looked at my world as a whole and saw too many looked at me as this boy this weak fragile entity that need to be watched and coddled. 

It wasn’t so much upsetting as it is sad, and I get it hell I am a loose cannon that moves around ALOT and hasn’t really settled in no area. But does that make me a flight risk or this baby bird that needs consent supervision? NO HELL NO HELL TO THE NO…

I think it hit me seeing my nephew and now in Florida with my Cousin/Nephew I see love and life at such a fragile way that I see being loving and showing love is not only essential to future life and love and peace on the planet but it is more necessary. I saw a world that wasn’t just not OK but completely OUT OF POCKET and not just in Alabama but in my life I saw too much people was getting away with and like I Albert Einstein said. “The world will not be destroyed by those who do evil but by those who watch them without doing Anything.” No truer statement fits, I can no longer sit by and let the world assume about anything. Live is too short and if I go tomorrow I want the world to know life is not only good but great. Yes, I’m in debt, yes I’m singe, yes I am a free spirit, yes I love love, yes I believe is FULL EQUALITY and yes I think my country is screwed in the head and we allow too much from within. 

In all i just wasn’t to make some facts clear, i am about to be 30 in Sept and i don’t listen to NO ONE, NO ONE i respect what respects me and over the years this moment has come several times and i purge but this time feels different because this thine around it's a lot of VIP members getting their cards cut in half and the Funeral is being planned no date is set but time to set it is quickly running out. I truly don’t have time for the fuckery the flagrant actions the disrespectful comments the belittling because you either create or allow and guess who good? ME I am blessed and I see my newest generation growing and I wanna give THEM the best chance at life. Because if you not adding to my Highly favored Life NO MATTER WHAT TITLE YOU HOLD you can be not cut off be Excommunicated from the League Xciled from the Tribe and on the Funeral list with a lost of sleep. 

Moral of the post I am not fragile and this is not my first time living so where or anywhere and at 30 people I have managed to make it around the world 3 times over and live in over 35 countries before 30 so believe me I’m OK and I have made it this far with or without you and MY future you may not be involved in. Life is too short and our world is ever changing if we as humans don’t start being the change we bitch about then step all the way to the side and allow a royal class to give this world a better tomorrow. I surround myself with Kings and Queens who want a better tomorrow if you are not part of the vision the I truly have no time for it. So before our next encounter remember I have a story like yours but different and I don’t wanna walk a mile in your shoes and you don’t know what its like to walk in mine. Fragile, I am Not… Of Royalty my Spirits comes from, I am of Strength of Loyalty, of Hope and most of all  I am of LOVE. 


Next time someone is quick to look at you like you don’t know what its like to Survive you remind them that its 2015 and your still here…  But AmI DEAD????

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐
Know Thyself⭐
Ty Johnson 2015

2/09/2015

Love Me like you Do (2015 -09-02)

                 So I am clearing going to see Fifty Shades of Grey this weekend but I never thought I would love a soundtrack so damn much. It is very sensual and yet empowering and beautiful and most of all SEXY. And then there was this damn song and talk about a little mini tiny sobfest and that was before I saw the damn music video OH LORD my FEELS were in overdrive hahahahaha.

So the super talented Ellie Goulding sings this beautiful piece of music.  And no lie I am Alive in this song. So I will leave a link at the bottom of this post to the official video and lyrics.

                I mean WOW all my feels right now it is a beautiful song about love and new love and the FALLING part of it all. She says at one point “I let you set the pace because I’m not thinking straight.” It is almost as if she is at the cliff of LOVE and ready to Dive but like she says “What are you waiting for?” Don’t get me wrong I loved the other songs on that soundtrack but this one like stung me. I guess let me explain… (Down the Rabbit Hole)

                I guess you can say the universe is waking me up slowly but surely and what I am seeing and feeling is changing dramatically. I chalk it up to Enlightenment and no I don’t mean I had a moment with Buddha I am referring to a shift in consciousness that is still happening but to see it happen and feel it happen is not only Beautiful but Exciting and a little daunting because as I grow and feel my inner me surface I see so much of my outer world crack and I love it. To see things fall off or fall apart isn’t as terrible as it sounds.  To love and be loved is the whole point of being here, to share our energy with others to pass on LOVE. As I let go of old beliefs and century old notions I see LOVE and people keep asking who is it and to be completely honest I found a muse. That sounds so silly the thought of a muse but as I write it I mean it. When there is a spirit that brightens your day with random text, or just the thought of chilling with them is lightening it becomes refreshing in a world full of motives and back handed people its good to rely on someone who doesn’t know you rely on them that this emoji J is enough on a Tuesday to see the good in the world.

To see someone you have never really seen or have seen this entire time but through different eyes is crazy. In the video for the song its clips of the movie and of this couple dancing and not only are so intense with it, but the emotion in it is so perfect. I guess I truly am in my FEELS I don’t mind it at all cause I am making choices and I don’t mean little I mean CHOICES. I cant believe 10 years ago this month I boarded my first cruise ship and the choices I have made since then has been a beautiful story that I can’t wait to continue.

I opened both eyes when I saw my sister in law pregnant with my nephew and holding my Aunts son I knew I loved my Tribe and my Tribe loved ALL of me. And not just my Blood tribe but to see the love in my all these amazing beautiful people I have met over the last 29 years have been a dream come true. I have always been a dreamer and sometimes that hasn’t ended well but overall I wouldn’t trade the last 29 years of life love and the pursuit of happiness.

                As I finish this pre Valentine Day post I will send this wish to the Universe, I wish all you Beautiful Spirits the Courage to Love again, the Strength to Move Forward, and the Heart to Show LOVE today!!!! With that I will take my own advice and show some love today.
“The Best use of Life is LOVE. The Best Expression of Love is Time. The Best Time to Love is NOW…”

Offical Video

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐
Know Thyself⭐
Ty Johnson 2015

10/11/2014

Papercut (2014-10-10)

    Ernest Hemingway would say "don't force it, write when you have something to say". Well it took me longer then normal but I heard this song Papercut by the Amazing Jordin Sparks on my special mix on Pandora and I shazamed it (yes I love that app) and shifted my mind a bit more.

"Cuz I was fine till you broke through. But don't worry baby, I'll get over you by tomorrow or the next day, or the next day, or the next day...
I'm ok, I'll be fine I only think about you half the time. I'm ok, I'll survive I only think about you half of the time. All those tears were just drops in the ocean baby, You never even cross my mind No No Boy you wish it hurt that much it was only a PAPERCUT."

I have been privy to some amazing, terrible, beautiful, sad, Oh My God moments the last couple of years but 2014 I awoke to a world I didn't recognize anymore. See I started dancing in 1989 when Janet Jackson released ⭐Rhythm Nation 1814⭐ and back then like RIGHT NOW a lot needed to be said about everything and very few people were saying it somewhat like today. The only difference is now we are old enough to speak out on injustice and the wrongs of the world we live in. I see a hateful, sad, lost world and in the same breath I see some real honest to goodness Peace, Love and Hope.

I say this song got to me because as I heard the song I thought this is beautiful.I loved the growth and heartache I can hear in it and her beautiful voice was what the amazing lyrics needed as a vessel. It got me to wondering how often do we dwell on a bad moment and let it boil over into our life? Too Damn often. I heard this song and I went WOW "I'll get over it tomorrow or the next day..." and I was like this all too true no matter what has happen it shall pass. It may not be today but when it does move forward because life has a way of giving us what we need when we need it, if you are aware.

I say to the lost, broken hearted, unhappy, confused, mad, jaded, happily settling, scared spirits of the world IT WAS ONLY A PAPERCUT. We were created PerfectlyImperfect & UniquelyPerfect and the trials and tribulations of this era takes a village not 7 Billion personal wars. I will say the LOVE I have seen makes me smile the openness for peace is here now we as people must cultivate that and help that grow and spread like wild fire. "Like tears in the ocean" is how I started to take inventory of my life to see that although I have been through so much in 29 years and the crazy CRAY CRAY moments where/are tears in the ocean.

To end this so I may drift to sleep, PAPERCUTS hurt like Hell at first and u truly act like a limb was almost chopped off. But in 3 days it is a distant memory "what Papercut?". Why can't we do better and stop taking life so serious, holding on to things that are already healed, blaming life for you not seeing your signs. All we need is around us and it doesn't cost nothing LOVE. #LoveCan do ANYTHING...
So like someone said;
 The best use of life is love. 
The best expression of love is time. 
The best time to love is now!

Übermensch ⭐ We Accept The Love We Think We Deserve ⭐ Life is the Sum of Choices you Make⭐ I See You… ⭐ Infinite Love Starts in the Heart ⭐ Perfectly Imperfect-Uniquely Perfect⭐
Know Thyself⭐

Ty
2014