Disclaimer: May offend or Amuse so read with caution.... OK it's been a min or two since i posted anything, I have not been uber busy or uber bored i feel like i have just been here. And a part feel like its OK and a part feel like i am just letting life pass me by. I love it here it has been a journey just to say that, alot of growth alot of grieve just alot. Jubilee is good big cast big costumes big sets so just big. Very separate and yet very close it's all in who u connect yourself with, I'm a loner and a people person all in the same time. I love my music everyone knows that and then i love to talk to my co-workers some of which i am glad to call my friend but i want more. Me becoming selfish or driven or wanting more, i want more for my life i need to do more see more be more. Life is a struggle and sometimes you can't win the battle but the war still to come and trust me I'm getting prepared. I think that life puts thing in front of you i feel i need more outlets shit happens and more so then i like i find myself angry more then usual. I think its because i find solitude and comfort in my music and movies by myself, But i miss the warmth of someone next to me but i need to be with someone i choose and not by connivance but because i like the inner person........ Anyhow things is WOW. i think i feel i love life but i worry that the things i can't control. But Some amazing news if you know me or if you don't i love the moon and if you read this tonight it is the biggest Moon and clearest view of the moon in 15 years so go out and look. Another thing caring for friends a close of friend of mine blogs alot like me and i was loving his latest entry and it made me think my friends are going through life like me in different ways. struggles hurt love lost and just change and some i can't be there for them in ways i wanted to and that sucks. For me to know my heart and soul is going through the same shit the are and it makes me smile that we can be there for each other, I must rest my eyes its my day off and i think i will need to write another before 2009. So in closing i need to be honest I'm me take it or PLEASE leave it alone, i need to be me all the time and understand that I'm loud and sometimes I'm completely quiet. Know that its not you so don't take offense if i don't call everyday or text or speak to.. My question is do u try? do you put yourself out there? do you wonder why I'm quiet or loud? inquire about me and i will inquire about you. SO ENJOY CHRISTMAS AND :-) :-D LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO CARE!!!!! (take it how you want it)
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