Life is the Sum of Choices you Make (9-03-2006)

Life is the Sum of Choices you Make Good Morning to the world it's October 1st here i start off the rest of the day NOW. Well i must inform all of you that life isn't as you want it to be until you wan it to be and take the needed steps to do that. My life has been a constant roller-coaster if you will, being who i am and doing what i do and feeling how i feel it's hard for someone to get to know me either we as humans judge and persecute what we don't understand or can't control or we banish to the waste land of loneliness. For me i feel stuck right in the middle of the vortex which is be a human being. I think since i left Detroit i find it hard to trust people in and out of this business and what makes it worst i love so easily cause i open m heart to all who will appreciate it but i seem to get those lemons who run it through the mud. everyone who knows me weather were close or not knows i love Janet Jackson and i think that her music has a way of telling me what i need to hears as is most artist that we love tend to do to you. On her All for you Album the track is titled "Better Days" and i find that to be one of many of the most true songs to ever be made. I'm not negative in any case but ever since i flew to Saipan i have had this dark cloud of negative energy following me what do i do? where do i go? how do i find what is missing my self who isn't lost just tucked away. We all feel alone at one point or another but when it happens very frequently like every dance contract you take or every new person you meet you begin to think am i going to walk this road alone or what? But I'm never alone i have to Lord and among my family friends old and new who know who they are who i love and they love me with no strings attached or one sided. I just want to thank them for being there like the old gospel song goes he may not be there when you want him but he's always there when you need him that holds true to my Friends who are always and forever just like God. That's why he puts them in our life.......................... :-)