So it feels like forever since wrote a thought about things but i think this title is fitting for me now. Has anyone seen that movie with Will Smith, well more then that i meant OUR pursuit of happiness. I moved recently to Las Vegas and things have changed for me and i think in a great way. I love it here i found that place were i belong. I know that may sound dumb to some people but to those of you on a totally different plane of existence like me you know what i mean. So long have i hopped from place to place bored and unamused, or not content not focused fluxed and the things in life that i shouldn't be. I feel lighter more content and so damn happy here i love it and its only been 3 weeks but its a happiness that I've wanted for sooooo long LOL. My pursuit is getting smaller you look back at your life and you try to place your life on a huge throne of accomplishments weather its the people you slept with, the number of kids you have, the clothes you bought, the places you've seen, or whatever you place in or around your throne. Wat about people you love and trust me I'm not talking about the girl that broke your heart or the dude that made you bitter, No I'm talking people who genuinely love you all the time. They are there with you during your pursuit of Happiness they actually contribute to your Life's blood and vice verse. they care you care, you cry they cry, they bleed you bandage. And trust me when i say it's not all family because like Soul Food said sometime family be the first ones to fuck you over. Not me Everyone knows Tee-Boo, Big Dave, and Lord Fokqua are my back bones LOL. i love my cousins you know who you are hahahahaha. but more then that bond there has to be some kind of measure or quality of man and woman you be around apparently you are the total sum of friends you have well i think I'm OK i have amazing friend from all different walks of life with each day, month, year pass by i see why they mean so much too me.. And sadly the reverse is I've known people for soooooooooooooooooooo many years and they really don't know me and then there's people I've known 3 months and get it right away......
Plz someone answer this for me do you need a special someone in your life to be happy, if that void is not filled will life stop and you no longer exist?
Me people freak out when i tell them its not about sex or that i've been single so long well shit happens and now my Pursuit of Happiness doesn't involve meaningless sex or relationship that drain you life LOL (U Know were I coming from) or I really don't need someone who doesn't understand me, ok i say that to say listen i have so many firends who are girls and i hear the same stories: Tim he ain't shit, where the good men at, i want him to chase me, why won't he call, F it i'd rather be alone then get hurt , they in denial, he not ready, i can go on for another 3 pages but i won't. then there are my very few guy friends i know and close with that say the exact oppisite: Tim Bitches ain't shit, all of em gold diggers and bitter, i ain't calling her, i'm just goiin to run through these hoes blah blah blah... Let's grow up we are not in 1st grade no more DO YOU LIKE ME YES, NO , MAYBE. Ok ladies if he don't call call him, men tell her you like her new hair do. i mean seriously we are on this planet but i min in the grand scale of Life i mean litterally they found a 150 million old dino bone we blessed if we see 80 so why wait that oursuit of happiness is wat drives you to do better i mean honestly you don't need a watever in your life to move in an amazing direction. you need something to pursue now if that is a man or woman a car, a big house well good luck i wish you the best you'll be at that for a while. But if you look back a the dream list you made when you were 8, 19, shit last year and its not nearly there well you not pursueing your happiness at all. Me i loko at my list and i had to think again on wat my dreams are or were becuz i have fufilled almost all of them before 25 so now i find myslef under a new pursuit. and i love this chase and one day the person that does everything for me will be in my pursuit vision, and those beautiful children and that future that i dream one day will happen in another pursuit but thats not my pursuit, HAPPINESS now thats something you can't buy on E-Bay. Why worry you only live once and make it the best it can be.
Tell me something wat are you pursuing wat is that driving force in your life wat is putting a smile on your dface daily( EXCEPT FOR TIM JOHNSON) i don't count unless i do count then thats hot let me know hahahhaha!!!!
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