If today was your Last Day & Better Days (04-12-2010)

Good Question Huh? and a Great Song by Nickelback. or Better Days Janet Jackson!!!

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So answer the question and then think about it for a min. I read the lyrics to this song watched the video and seriously sitting here in my room @ 2am just got super sad. WHAT IF? today was my last day could i say goodbye to yesterday, live each moment like its my last, leave old pictures in the past, donate every dime i had. Could you how precious is the life you live right now that if 2morrow wasn't coming what would you do? WHAT IF? Call those friends you never see, reminisce on old memories, forgive your enemies, find that one your dreaming of, swear up and down to God that you would fall in love. Honestly it puzzles me i read these lyrics and its so true WHAT IF? Would you try to mend a broken a heart. I know its completely contrasting but this song "BETTER DAYS" has taking me through each step in my life it is powerful and so true in so many ways you think about all you been through and what is  next and WHAT IF today was your last day? uh oh tie-in. I love my job and what i do and it took almost 25 years to say listen I am me and no one else can change that and be firm in my statement about me NOW in this time in this place. So much happens in your life that you rarely step back and look at someone else life and go TALK TO ME I AM LISTENING. So here is what I am getting too if today was my last day i want this to be known I have had a roller-coaster of a life and i would not change none of it maybe 2 or 3 events but  personally and professionally I have lived many life's and have embodied many persona's I feel as if the journey is just at the start and I have a lot more to come but that isn't scary anymore it is welcoming because BETTER DAYS are ahead not to say better days haven't passed but you have valleys and peaks and that's what life is. I just had a lot on my mind and we just started a new contract @ Jubilee and for me growing as a man and as a performer and you think where did the time go where are my Best Friends what have I contributed to the greater cause of Life....

Some of the lyrics in Better Days ring so true,

"I used to sit and wonder,Would I ever be happy Life was so bittersweet So many disappointments

Too many ups and downs for me, When you live a nightmare It's hard to dream. But sometimes life just isn't fair So why complain nobody cares, And I don't wanna waste nobodies time.

So I'm  bout to change my vibe,Today the sun's gonna shine cause I made up my mind that today will be the start of better days leaving old shit behind, And move on with my life the blindfolds off my eyes

And now all I see for me is better days."

"Afraid of my reflection Tell me that's not me I see That's who I wanna be, Stuck somewhere in the middle on half full or half empty Waiting for somebody to come and rescue me. Can't let that petty attitude start to jade my point of view only thing that does is bring me down."

I read this i feel this i believe this and i am sad because when is the start of better days?

I am leaving old shit behind moving on with my life i have too because i think if today was my last day in 2 months everyone i cared about would be sad but would be moving on with life and i will become a distant memory. So know that BETTER DAYS are ahead and that IF TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY i would tell you listen I love you and i would go to a beach sit there and listen to Janet Jackson and smile at all the memories I had in this lifetime. so no I am not mad or upset just Sad i wish for so many things not for me but for my friends and family. Peace, Love, Forgiveness, Compassion, Patience.

I know I am totally complicated and weird to some and loud but I love those things about me and glad I have those things about me and I'm not 30 or 40 i don't have the life experience as some of the people in my show but I'm no 19 year old kid or 50 something bitter and jaded. I am me through and through and if that is an issue I understand but at the end of the day 2morrow isn't promised and my better days are here.

So know

 "I'm Not Perfect, but I'm trying(when you needed me there were a few times i did not come running), I'm Not Perfect, but I'm Working (When you wanted more  I would give Less, and I'm sorry),

I'm Not Perfect, but I'm getting closer the more I know Y'all...(PLEASE GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE)

I'm Not Perfect, BUT I'M BETTER THAN I WAS YESTERDAY!!!!

SO here is my declaration I love my life and things i do and I could be around all the people i love all the time to fell love and give love all the time, but in the mean time Accept 

In closing: Love the skin your in and if not evolve into something more by growth and change, <3 and Cherish the moments that are irreplaceable, and  make those Moments happen. Live Each Day as if it's your Last and if not Better Days are ahead if you want them!!!

LIVE, LOVE & DANCE