I Bruise Easily (02-22-2009)

Omg it has been a good minute since u guys got to listen to my beautiful words of nothing or something..... (So lets make it worth while Ur wild)!

I BRUISE EASILY

Not easy but quite easily done, to bruise could me literally i freak in bruise easily don't punch, pinch, hit, slap, kick me. first that shit hurts and second i mean seriously i may bruise. But that could also mean so many more things lets just start with the one that came first to my head EMOTIONAL Bruises wow now that for me is a HUGE one but i think for anyone its a big one, because i think it is the longest lasting in my eyes because i get some ice or medication and my physical bruises fade and go away but with those damn emotional scars and bruises they are like the cough it never really goes away although u wish it could. When someone hurts your feeling or rejects u or just literally effects your mood in a negative way kinda bruises you and u gotta learn to deal and move forward because if we can't forgive and heal "we are no better then the beast that are at are Door"(Underworld: Rise of the Lycans). Sorry that was a great line but 4real i think Bruises are worse then scars because scars heal but bruises just fade and leave such lasting effects. I have tons of bruises but i think i was so used to them that they just were like second skin and now i feel like i pick the bruises i want on me which is so sad i know right. Too nice too forgiving to mean to loud to TIM i understand none especially the last i mean really how could i not be me and still be me? Think About that....

Next i need you all to realize I am HAPPY and i Rarely get upset with BS, but what pisses me off is Bitter, Jaded, tainted people LOL i am one of those well i was and now my eyes are open to more possibilities and life in general i feel like i have taken for granted some of the best moments in my life you know you can go to a remote island or climb a mountain or even pee on my sky diving instructor(which was comedy). but i feel like you look at these pics of these amazing experiences and you can only share through word of mouth I came back home and saw so so many of my girls that i was so excited to see again and trying to explain my love of Vegas to them was hilarious but to hear that they too are enjoying life meant so much to hear i was so glad to hear that they are finding their way. i was pleasantly surprised that things were good here, i feel like life is happening for all my friends and now i can say YEAH they happy and yet sad because i don't think they will need me anymore. i mean my friend all around the world are moving forward and that is such a blessing i pray for them so much that they find there way. this song i cut up so y'all could read the lyrics.

It's I WISH by Heather Headley

I’d give you the moon

But you’d never the warmth of the sunshine

I’d give you the world

But exactly what would that do

I’d promise you wings to fly

But how would you ever learn to run

So I wish you all you need

To be than I could be

This is what I wish for you

I wish you rainy days

So you can know the beauty of a clear blue sky

I wish you falling leaves

So you understand that seasons change

And if I gave you the mountains

Would you learn to climb?

I pray you’ll always see

The forest through the trees

This is what I wish for you

I wish you ocean breeze

And rivers that bring you everything you need

I wish the air you breathe

Is all that you’ll ever need

And I wish you nights of love

And days of joy

And shoulders when you cry

And just enough hellos

To get you through goodbye

This is what I wish for you

I wish you everything you need...............

I am so glad she dropped this song it reminds me of the prayers i put out there for all my friends near and far and now that they are good where do i fit in am I left in the dark by myself or do i move pass this or do i accept this as a big Bruise and let be it heal. I wanna think differently but it is so hard to say WOW i helped someone but now am I left behind but not really my life is on a fast moving mountain upward. thank GOD i made it this far with them and with each passing moment time is slowly slipping away so i try my best to enjoy it. But i guess what i am saying is Bruises fade injuries heal, love is lost pain is always around but Life is Short so Live it Full and Happy and please have no regrets. If i had to say i had one regret it would be Not saying I LOVE Y'ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!